Food allergy Recently I am watching a TV series called Rotten. in the show, it introduces a variety of food products and how the businessmen manipulated the global market by them and the influence on our daily lives. Allergy to peanuts is one of the topics. in the recent decades, there are more and more people have food allergy. and the reason why the disease is more prevalent these years is still unknown. one of the possible reason would be reduced bacteria in the children's digestive system. Nowadays, the children in their early age are exposed more clean environment and processed food. therefore, their body do not recognize amount of organisms. but when they expose to the food or ingredient in later age, they would have severe reaction as their body identify them as invaders.

book club recently I joined a book club. it was my first time to join one. I always carve discussing thoughts or feelings of a book with others especially in these months. coincidentally, my friend just told this book club and she brought me there. so every month the organizer Anna will hold a meetup for this book club. the schedule runs like: in the beginning, she will introduce the new member of the club and members will share their recent lives. after that, she plays audio book for a short chapter and we read it at the same time. and we share the experiences or discuss the question or doubts. so you don't have to read it in a advance. you can just bring the book and attend the event. it was quite relaxing. last time there was a guy joining us. he was very polite. when he showed up he introduced himself and shaked hands with everyone. during the episode, he poured others tea several times. i was very impressive. i feel like he is a very introspective and Knowledgeable person. in short, I grasped many new perspective in my mind. i am so grateful my friend brought me there!!

the experience of Meditation the first time i heard about meditation was from my friend Adam. He told me about the benefits of meditation and shared his experiences which has changed him a lot. I did not pay much attention about this kind of religious worship (?). but recently, I read a book which mentioned the experiences of meditation. the author said after he started to meditate he can observe people well that helped him for his business a lot. i felt like he just tried to exaggerate the good part of meditation. so in order to validate the benefit, last week i installed an app called Headspace which can guide me to practice Meditation. in this app, it also showed some perceptions of it. for example, you might have experience in having a messy minds. and through mediation, you can be clam for the come-and-go thoughts instead of getting lost in it. in the first few days of meditation, i starting feeling the environment. i noticed the voices i have ignore for a long time. i can feel which part of body are sour, tight and relaxed. it was an amazing experience. i think i am going to stick to the schedule to see how other i can get from meditation.

responsibility or love? today i took a bus to visit my parents. i did not pay attention how much battery my phone left before i went out, because i thought i could have charge my phone on the bus anyway. however, there was no plugs in that bus and my phone is dying. the thing was i need to call my mom when and where to pick me up. with other choices, i tried to talk to the woman next to me and hoped she was willing to let me use her phone for a call. fortunately, she was super nice. actually she asked me if i need some help after she saw me desperately looking for the plugs. i told her about my dying phone and need a call. without hesitation, she borrowed her phone to me and said if i need to make a call later just asked her again. how lucky i was to meet this nice and warm woman! afterwards, we started making a conversation. we chatted about the daily life, career and family..etc. and she talked about an incident happened to her which was occupied my mind for a long time. here it was: five years ago, she was 37 years old with a ten months old daughter. Her husband had a stoke during a meeting in his company. luckily, he was sent to a hospital within 30 mins since the hospital only few miles away from his company. he was survived after intense rescues. however, the left side of his body was total paralyzed and the right side was limited movements. he stayed in hospital nearly for a year. the surgeries, follow-up examines and recurrent infections made both of them suffer and exhausted. he was depressed from the radical change. he could not deal with his daily basics. he needed a 24/7 helper to take care of him. she had to take care of the baby, earn money for all the expense and give her husband both physical and mental supports. however, he was too frustrated to do the rehabilitation exercise regularly in the golden timing..... i could not imagine how she went through all of this. she was one of the most brave women i have met.

fake it before you become it Have you had experiences that you wanted to re- do a thing or you wished you could have done it better? Imagine you have a important presentation which will define who you will be in the future in 30 minutes, you might feel anxious, breathless and try to be confident and passionate but you can not help keep think about the questions the audience might have and how terrible would be if you fail it. I just start reading a book called "presence bring your boldest self to your biggest challenges". I have many similar experiences which were embarrassing and humiliating. for example during the interview, my brain was frozen and stuck with afraid of being declined. I was there. I did not put my energy in listen or observe what the interview's questions and reactions. I was an imposer. I was not "present". and after the interview, I got regretted and I should have said.... i should have noticed... but it was too late and time will not be come again. I will not have no the second chance. in some dates, I also learn the same lessons. I did not pay attention what he said and what his interest was. only thing i thought about was how to put my hands. i knew it brought the failure but i was worried of being refusing or unattractive too much. The only thing you should do is "to be present". enjoy the moment and the process. be confident and passionate. not worry about the consequence. fake it before you become it! (the book is amazing!)