If I should go back to China for Chinese new year I check the price for the ticket to China around Chinese new year,but it seems the price has never dropped!! Its still super expensive....I heard lots of people said that it might drop on December,hopefully its ture! I have been here in America for 1 year,so I did miss Spring Festival last year,and I felt so lonely.I even cried when I was talking to my dad at that time .My friends in China told me they got together to party,after I heard that I decided to go back this end of year.But things are not as easy as I thought. I talked to my boss and asked her if I can request 1 or 2 monthes off to go back to China ,and without any doubt,her answer was "No".She told me that if I want to go back,I need to quit the job!! To be honest ,I dont really like my job.Taking this job was just for having more experience since I didnt have any when I first got here.Well, I know that I need to have at least 1 year experience to work in customer service for applying the second job to work in he same field,but if I quit the job,I wont have enough experience and that makes my decision tougher.I have been struggling for months after I got such news. Couple weeks ago,I talked to my mum,and what she told me made me even more anxious to go home.Nevertheless,I will try my best to make it to go back next year.I will keep my track on the price of the airplane ticket,and once I see the deal show up,I will definitely book it right away and deal with the "no job" problem later when I come back .I think what I need to do now is just cutting off all the thoughts that hangs in my mind ,that way will make myself more ease to decide what to do next, This actually make me think about one thing that I really want to ask you guys.Whats more important for you ,your family or your career??

I am off today I usually made my notes here whenever I got bored at work.But today I am off ,I am feeling to write something .So the first thing that I thought about was to get on here and share with you guys !! I actually dont know what this notebook is for >>?? Maybe its for people to learn English or wanna improve writing skill .But fo me ,I do enjoy writing stuff here ,its like share my current feeling with my best friends ,lol,except some gossips that I used to throw ...... I used to be a central of attention.When I was in elementrary school,I got lots of attention from other students around me .,because my dad was a mayor of our town.I was spoiled by my parents without a question.My dad let me do whatever I want.Thats why I am sort of arrogant now,and I truely hate that. Since I got on middle school,I had worked really hard at school,and it made me confident that I became a really good student.I was really good when I was in middle school ....every day was the same to me,shool -home-school.I didnt date and have no parties to go to .Whenever I got home ,I had lunch and then did my homework ,then directly go to school again .Life was really simple but full of fun for me because I really focused on what I was doing and enjoyed a lot.My school work was alway got praised by the teachers.Sooner I became a top student in middle school,and became a central of attention in the school again.The teachers loved me ,I got spoiled by them .I lived with full of applause .But things had changed since I got into high school. I was forced to leave home for high school.And it was the first time I left home to stay somewhere else.I couldnt adapt to the life like that.I was happy that I entered the best high school in town,but that didnt made my feel better since I got to live by myself .Because of that,I missed my parents a lot and couldnt focus on school.My scores were like the waterfall dropping crazily.And definitely I lost the attention from the teachers or students and confidence.The attention for me was like the water for the fish.I used to live a life with all the beatiful flower bloom ,but then I was in a totally different circumstance .I couldnt handle it all myself.So obviously ,my high school sucked.I became weird out that that . But now whenever I looked back,I felt it was a good lesson .Nobody would be always a central of attention ,and thats no sense to become a central of attention either.You are who you are,you are not special !

nice day so far Working early morning again.But I have to admit that today is a real nice day.The weather is awesome.It was a little cold in the early morning when I came to work .But now the sun already came out and it looks shinning outside from my view.I m standing in front a tv,lol the way you can guess what kind of job I am having !!! Thinking about what I am gonna do this afternoon