Smile Long before, I decided to be a pediatrician. At first, I just want to be a doctor who can relieve all the patients pain and cure their disease. After I enter a medical school, I find it almost impossible. All the diseases are complex and hard to deal with. Even the a simple disease like hypertension has been researched for years but we hardly can do anything to stop the progression. Sometimes I watch patients in pain. Their faces were twisted and miserable, they hold my hand and ask for my help, but I could = only stand there and say you would be Okay soon. The more I experience, the more I want to avoid from. I feel hopeless about my career. And then it is a bright morning, I check the lab results of a little child who got acute leukemia. The results were not optimistic and he might have to go through another Lumber puncture. It was hard for me to tell the terrible new to him. Such a cute and innocent boy. When I came to his bed, he looked up to me, blinking with some tear. He seems to know that he had to do a lumbar puncture again, but he sobbed instead of crying out loud. I did not know what to say. Surprisingly, he smiled with his tear in the eyes, said:"My mother said if I behave bravely, I can be healthy again"(the tone is wrong, but I can not translate it to the right tone in English). It is the smile that makes me believe that I should be a pediatrician. It means patients' trust and hope for our doctors. Although I cannot solve all the problems, but at least I understand and give them a hand when they are in desperate. I hope in the future I can return the boy with a bigger smile and tell him that you don't have to worry, we are right here.

welcome to be my friend My name is Jackson. I am a medical student and want to be a pediatrician in the future. Now I live in Shanghai, which is an international city. it gives me the chance to meet a lot of friends from other countries. I am applying for US hospital for elective student now. But I fail the TOEFL test in the speaking part. So, I am studying hard preparing for the next exam. I do not know how to correct my oral English, if there is anyone want to make friend with me or help me with my speaking, I will be grateful. We can talk face to face if you are in shanghai, or use Skype if you are abroad. I can share my experience of Chinese culture and the medical school life. Looking forward to you reply, my new friends.