Choice of friendship i always have a question , when i asked me , i cant answer . there are someone around with me that my living will been influence ？ maybe I am not a firm girl ， I ofthen asked somebody what should I do . and I always do something similar to somebody . I think I am doing sth imitate somebody ，such as speaking or some bahaviors . in fact ，I hate these . I want to have some change . I should finish my homework on time . when my teacher has been told me what is it later . I should knoe keep contect with somebody ，and I should far away somebody . I learned a lot of bad habits from these person .I must far away these person. maybe friendship no have respectively ，but I must chooce someone who have the same ambitions . although ，I want to be friend with everyone . but I cant use youth gambing the future . sometimes ，chooce very helpless . but I am have to chooce . when one has been successful ，they will have friends .The level of friends decided on what position you are in, and with what kind of rights. I feel sad for these dead friendship . but this has become a can not be changed in nowdays . I dont want to fall into . I just want to do what I want to do things quietly. So give me more courage to persist, more tenacious in the face of all the bad things.

IN WINTER in the winter , i lose my best friend . she is my first friend in my college . we can drink beer together , we can eating meal together , we can do anything together ,we depended on each other . we think it‘s the only one of each other . but no reason ,we are became far away . more and more far . we have no way to hear heart sound from each other . i feel sad ，so crying . cry for me in college first friendship is over . Cry for a once very important people go away my life . in life ，many things I cant control . I feel me is very failure . I cant make something well . I hate myself ，Hate myself for not doing things the courage. Hate myself, not to let others like myself. sometimes ，I feel sad . because I always do what I no should do . then I always asked what should I do . no one can answer me . maybe I cant help myself . I am really an timid girl . I think myself is silly and stupid .

I WANT TO I want to be an tender girl . I want to my character became serious . I want to be an international accountant . I want to future will live in America . I want to have an man more love me . when i feel tired time . I want to have a depand on person . when i feel loney time . I want to have a man to warm my heart . when i feel hungry time . i want to have a man can boil rice for me . I just want to let me become outstanding . I just want to have good time everyday .