my back this is the first year i went out my of university, six months went away,the new year is also around the corner,i feel so frustrated, before the last day i stayed at my school, i thought i would shape my own life, i wanted to be free, because the time i was in school was restricted tightly, but now, i totally understand the meaning of " ivory tower" at the same time , it can be back , once it is gone, recently, i keep on listening to the program " VOA" it is wonderful, i am luckly accompanied by it .

the change when i talk to someone, i find my english isn't good enough for me to talk to somebody freely , it is a problem , i have learned english for nine years , it is a long time , actually , my english is still poor , many times , i want to find why , but i ended with a empty head ,this is not a occasional things , it baffle me so long time , now , graduation is around the corner , i find a job in education training institution ,i got this job as a teacher , this job is also that my parents wanted me to do , but now, something has changed without any signal. i come to doubt my dream , i am not a impulsive person, no matter how difficult it is

new finding before now, i thought i could say something unhappy things here to release myself ,i get rid of the thought now since i see so many people write some study material on this , i get a lot from reading that , this is an actual studying website, i am so lucky i am one of this ,

my own when i get my pen , so many things come up to mind , it is so hard to start to tidy it up because of the complex relationship between them i often decided my own decisions , No matter what other people say . i do what i want to do , i say what i love to say . Maybe you would say i was too stubborn to listen and care about other people's feelings , you are total wrong.i would speak some thing to someone face to face rather than whisper behind them . i would rather swallow the bitter silently than spread them to bother my friends even i knew that would be such a big challenge that i couldn't burden it by my alone , i summoned up courage to do that when i thought it would bring my friends smiles . For this , i never regret .

My Friends when i get my pen , so many things come up to mind , it is so hard to start to tidy it up because of the complex relationship between them i often decided my own decisions , No matter what other people say . i do what i want to do , i say what i love to say . Maybe you would say i was too stubborn to listen and care about other people's feelings , you are total wrong.i would speak some thing to someone face to face rather than whisper behind them . i would rather swallow the bitter silently than spread them to bother my friends even i knew that would be such a big challenge that i couldn't burden it by my alone , i summoned up courage to do that when i thought it would bring my friends smiles . For this , i never regret .

My Friends when i get my pen , so many things come up to mind , it is so hard to start to tidy it up because of the complex relationship between them i often decided my own decisions , No matter what other people say . i do what i want to do , i say what i love to say . Maybe you would say i was too stubborn to listen and care about other people's feelings , you are total wrong.i would speak some thing to someone face to face rather than whisper behind them . i would rather swallow the bitter silently than spread them to bother my friends even i knew that would be such a big challenge that i couldn't burden it by my alone , i summoned up courage to do that when i thought it would bring my friends smiles . For this , i never regret .