the change when i talk to someone, i find my english isn't good enough for me to talk to somebody freely , it is a problem , i have learned english for nine years , it is a long time , actually , my english is still poor , many times , i want to find why , but i ended with a empty head ,this is not a occasional things , it baffle me so long time , now , graduation is around the corner , i find a job in education training institution ,i got this job as a teacher , this job is also that my parents wanted me to do , but now, something has changed without any signal. i come to doubt my dream , i am not a impulsive person, no matter how difficult it is