Random Thoughts I woke up early this morning, around 5 am or before. Several thoughts went through my mind, mainly financially, like how much of the loan I lent out will never come back to me. Well there's a lot. I thought it was the reason for the early morning. But it turns out not till just now. It’s the infinite loneliness. Suddenly sadness claws my heart after thinking through why my parents keep pushing me to get married. They must have felt time is chasing them. And how are they going to let worries go away before seeing me starting my own family and having somebody love and support their son? Imaging them worrying about me day and night, imaging the sand in their hourglass going down day by day, imaging myself living with all loneliness in the time my parents gone can seriously rip my heart and wet my eyes. It’s very possible I might get killed by loneliness one day if I choose to live a life as it is. Why am I being so sensitive? Is the man’s menstruation working on me? Shall I be going back and thinking how to get my money back? Well I need to finish work quickly and leave to gym to let go some negative feelings, and at end of the day, call home, to tell how I miss my family 2000 KM away from me.

WHY GOD EXISTS

All of a sudden, I realise why GOD exists.

It's because deep down in heart, in soul, human beings are eavil. We have desires, and with all the desires, good and evil can varies between each other so fast, that no one can make judgement.

So acient brilliant people meet GOD when trying to find their peace in heart, and they decide to leave their soul to GOD and let GOD regulate their mind and behaviour.

So it doesn't matter GOD exsits or not, or even you can say that GOD is you and everyone, but stands at a higher level of life.

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Marriage Materail Several years ago, a girl claimed that she would not choose me for marriage since I am not a marriage material. We do like each other, but she ended up marrying another guy, and moved to Canada. Well it hurt a little, not much, since I saw her more as a little sister than a girlfriend. This idea made me feel much better. What makes a man/ a woman a good marriage material? Or for directly thinking, what makes me a bad marriage material? First of all and most importantly, I don't believe in marriage. What's the meaning of marriage, which remains mysterious to me. Further more, I think monogamy is anti-human. According to loyalty of marriage, people must have sex with exclusive one in the period of marriage, which is a huge horror to me. When making love becomes a routine to people, when no sparkles in each other's eyes, what else left in marriage? Responsibility? Why girls are more fond to marriage than boys? Maybe not all of them, but at lease mine is. She is always asking whether I will marry her, when I can do it... which scares me very much. I don' want to lie, but I know there is definitely a big fight after the truth, that is I don't want to get married. not never, at least for the recent several years. I really don't think marriage is some thing I must have when I hit some age, and it's not for parents better retirement life or their will fulfillment neither. Soul mate is what I believe and will pursue in the future, which in my opinion, is beyond sex. That makes a marriage meaningful. However why marriage is needed between soul mates?

A Funny Story This morning I was watching a TV programme, called 'Qiang Qiang Threesome'. Well not real threesome, it's a talk show focus on hot social themes. One episode, they talked about singing national song, which reminded me of some old-time funny story. I still feel embarrassed. I was in high school, and a new music teacher came. First class we were encouraged to sing a song to class, unfortunately I became the first, because I was a small quite guy sitting in the corner back then. Stupidly I choose national song, and sang it very well. Till now I know I was against some kind of law code, since that it is stipulated we only sing national song under certain decent condition, not everywhere, anytime. well does it count as a confession..lol