Lack of time I haven't been learning English for 2 weeks (because I was extremly busy), and now I feel more comlicated to write and speak, like there is something on my way and I trip over it again and again. I don't like to do long breaks, but 24 hours are not enough for me. Now I am thinking (to be honest, I've been thinking about it for a long time) about exercise. I realy want to be more physical active, but when T look at my schedule I can just accept. I think I try to do too much at the same time, but I can't give up the languages or my hobbies. I just want to have Money Tree and never work again :D Yes, it is the solution. I'd like to have a robotic body and never sleep and never be tired.

Tenses I think in learning languages the most interesting (and difficult at the same time) thing are tenses. You can learn a lot words and phrases, you can understand the logic of your target language, but there is the difference between people of different countres: they feel and perceive time in different ways. That always confuses me a lot. It is no use to try to translate tenses from your native language to target. I can speak about it as Russian, who tries to realise English tenses. If I try to translate Russian's tenses (for example telling about past event) it would be only Past Simple. When English-speaking people use Present Perfect, Russians use Past Simple, it is usual past event for us. I always think what tense I have to use, but in real lif it is really difficult, so I have a lot of mistakes. I really want to understant how English-speaking people perceive time. But it is extremely complicated to think in other way.

New Year Presents I haven't been writing here in a while. I have to fix it. I have been really busy these days. But now it's Christmas and New Year's time, so people think about presents and celebrating. I am thinking too. In Russia Christmas isn't a big event, usually we have a big New Year celebration. Now I am thinking about presents for my friends, and I am not sure beause things, which my friend want to get, have to be ordered very early (because of time shipping), but I'm affraid that they will buy them by themselves... So it's really hard to choose something. But I want to give them want they want and what will make them happier. I like to give gifts, but choosing is exhausting.

About time I think I haven't been writing here for a long time, but last 2 weeks were so crazy, honestly, I didn't understand what was going on at all. Now I am in the same situation, but I have time and desire to write, so I am here. Today I want to talk about time. I think it is the most valuable resource in our lifes. It sounds trivial, I know. But, you know, this awareness brings a lot of problems in life. You feel guilt all time when try to relax or do something useless. I think, it is a big problem, because without rest you can't do a lot. But when you are resting you always think you're just wasting your time. Especially it feels when you don't have a lot of free time for your own things. Time runs so fast so I am afraid to wake up one day and realize I've done nothing. I'd like to end on a positive note, so maybe one day I can manage my time.

Thoughts about why people love celebrities I don't know, why I want to write about that (and I don't know, why I write here like it is my diary or something :D) but now I want to talk about pop industry. Maybe I've chosen the wrong world, but I want just to think a little about why people sometimes are so tied to some groups or actors. I am this kind of people, so, I suppose, I can talk from the point of my own experience. I pondered about it yesterday, when I had got some not so good news and one of the first things I did was opening Youtube and watching videos of star I like. It was like lifebuoy. I could forget about my problems for a moment. When I see this world, so bright, with beautiful people, happy smiles, I think that hapiness exists. This world look like doll's world. Beautiful and ideal, without pain, tears. Of course I understand, that it is only a picture, a mirage. But one part of my soul sincerely believe, that there are a piece of truth in these smiles. I want to believe, that somebody somewhere can be beautiful and happy. So when I watch it it's like I touch this world. Feel myself the part of it. I don't think all people feel the same, but maybe some of them. People like brights and beautiful things. But the bad side is that these people, who are happy in your mind, can be unhappy in reality. You can't help it.