Creative rewrite "A Temporary Matter"
This is the first part of my creative rewrite of the short story "A Temporary Matter" for my English class. It would be great if someone could proof-read it. :) Thank you!
Dear Diary,
it’s been three days since I
’ve told Shukumar about the apartment. I’ve been living at my
parent’s parents' home these past days
, because I can’t stand the thought of being near
to him now. Although it feels weird to be back here and sleep in my old room. It’s hard to hold their gazes for I know how much they despise my decision. I guess I’ll never forget dad’s look “It’s a disgrace that
you don’t want to live with your husband anymore for practically no reason!” I haven’t told anyone what Shukumar
had told me. I just can’t say it out loud to my parents and I think it would not make any difference to Dad. I didn’t expect him to react any different. Dad, at least, will never accept that it’s a different time now and that he is not in India anymore. For them, I’m a disgrace. I’m a disgrace for
marrying having married Shukumar in the first place, for being the breadwinner and for leaving him. It would have been easier to just stay at Gillian’s house for a few days, but I was too afraid and ashamed to ask her. Maybe she would have understood my situation… or maybe she’s still angry with me for breaking off contact with her. Perhaps I should send her a letter and explain everything to her in detail. Anyways, at the beginning of the next week I can move into the apartment. Besides that, I have to focus on the good things now, I mean at least I don’t have to see him. It would just hurt too much. I still can’t believe how he could have been so heartless. Before telling him about the apartment I imagined what he would say over and over again, but this didn’t cross my mind. Even if I had known that he knew the gender of our child. This is not the Shukumar I married. He used to be so loving and sensitive. I know that pain changes people. I mean, I
've changed too, but the Shukumar I used to know would have never done something like that to me. How much does he hate me to do such a thing to me? I mean, I never wanted to hurt him
, that’s why I played that game in the first place, but he clearly doesn’t care about me anymore. I
'd just hoped that he might figure out that I
'd wanted to tell him, yet he was completely clueless. Even a few months ago
, Shukumar would have noticed instantly if something was wrong… I really wanted to tell him everything on the first night, but I couldn’t.