I begin to think about my past. Do you ever think about your ancestry? During my childhood my parents didn't know which religion I should have cause my mom is Russian(She is Christian) and my dad is Tatar(He is Muslim). Two great nationalities. Russian and Tatars. It's amazing. And I have the blood of both nationalities. I can't believe in it. I don't know Tatar language but I'd like to do. When I was a very little girl there was a person who tried to teach me Tatar but I was so stupid and didn't want that. Now I regret it. I so want to know more be more close to my other side - Tatar side. I'm listening to music in Tatar and this language is really beautiful like Farsi etc. My ears feel amazing when it hear the Tatar language. But I'm so far from them. I'm so far from the Tatar culture. Cause nobody from my close relatives lived in Tatarstan. It's sad. If I can learn Tatar language in the University I'd be really happy. And how do you think I'm more Russian or more Tatar girl, haha?

Hello, again) I'm so sorry... I was away for so long time. I'm sorry I didn't answer to some people who wrote me. Don't be angry with me, please! Forgive me) I'm here again and will try to be here every day) I missed you so much...

Hello Everybody! （こんいちは！） I want to make the two notes here today. I should to practice my English :) What do I want to tell to you? This is scary and terrible topic...for me, of course. I have some English-speaking friends who help me with my English. I notice it's improving every minute thanks to them. I communicate with them always and maybe every day. And sometimes ago they said me:"Diana, do you want to communicate with us and use your spoken English? We mean not text. We want to hear your voice and your speech." I was glad but when I begin to imagine it my soul begin to shout me:"No! I'm so afraid! How can you imagine it?! Your English speech understanding is very bad you know. I'm afraid. You're not ready! Do you hear me?!" Yes, my soul is right. I'm afraid too and I can't understand the English speech. Just if I don't understand a word I'll can't translate it with help of translater or lexicon. This is online chat and it's scary. I want it very much but I'm afraid. If I don't understand what my friend says to me I'll be very ashamed... Of course, such practice is very useful for me but my soul is opposed, haha. My friends said me:"No, don't worry. We understand you and we will call you when you'll be ready." Now I'm begining to ask my soul to will be calm and it's hard. My soul is stubborn, but however I like it.

Just Thoughts. What is important in our life? Maybe is it family? Love? Happiness? Or money? I don't know, because this is doing of everyone. But what about me? What is important for me? Maybe studying Japanese and English languages or my future? When I think about it I became confused. Some time ago my English was very bad, I could said nothing. But later I have met my friends. Just people who was unknowns for me. Now they are my best friends. It's so strange because I hadn't thought that I would ever have friends-foreigners. And now I understand that they are very important for me. I don't know why. People who opened door in the world became very important for me. Some things happend with us and I lost some my friends. It was very painfully for me. I was depressed because I hadn't want to lose nobody. When I imagine I'll be without them I'm afraid. I don't want that. I want that they would be with me always. I don't know why it's important for me just I'm happy with them. Some time I don't answer them because I'm busy but them I feel bad because I want to communicate with them always. My English is not perfect but I'm trying to talk with me friends very correctly. I want they wouldn't think that I'm only their "pupil". I think that they are my friends. Only two month ago I think that I need the English only because this can help me to study Japanese but now I don't think. The English language is important because it is the only connection which can tie me up with my friends. I'm afraid to lose this connection. Very afraid...

What about a Diary? Hello everyone. I'm interested. Are you keeping the diaries or not? Me yes. Because I think that it's very interesting. If you keep diary, this can help you to analyze your behaviour. When I was a little girl I kept such diary. My thoughts and feelings was very funny there, but I wrote a lot maybe every day. I remember that my first note was about I was afraid to do vaccinated ^^ So cute. I was 7 y.o. Then this was very scary! My second note was about:"Oh, this is not hurt! And I was afraid. So funny! I should to draw sun because I have a good mood!:)" Hahaha, so cute, isn't it? Some time ago I have noticed one thing. Now I like Japan and I want to associate this country with my future. When I read my first diary I have found this note :"I like Japan very much!" I was so surprised! This is amazing. How could I know then that I'll be to love this country when I'll be more older. Really amazing... Later I have found the second note :"Today I said my mother that I began to study Japanese. But she said me :"Japanese language is very hard language." I think that this is not hard language because the letters of this language is very beautiful." Of course, some times later I had forgotten that I had wanted to study this language but now I'm studying Japanese! My love with Japanese originated already in childhood. This is really wonderful! So people you should to keep the diaries in order to you'll can to be surprised as me in future!

Cry From the Heart...:D I want to tell you about something. If you want to communicate with me, you should read this text. It's important for me. When some persons write me they always ask me:"Do you have Skype?" or "Can we communicate on Skype?" And when I answer to them :"I'm sorry, but I don't want to communicate with you on Skype...My spoken English is very bad.", our communicated cease. I understand that you want to improve your spoken-English, but I'm afraid do it. I know, it's important , but I'm afraid to speak with unknown. I can do it only with persons who became my friends. What do I can to tell you if I don't know you? Nothing. It's sad, that most persons stop communicating with me, if I say that I don't use Skype or I don't want to use it. I just want to know about you more and communicate with you. I'm sorry that I'm shy. Probably, for me friendship is more imrortant then studying languages. So, if you'll want to write me, because you want to speak with me on Skype, you should know, that not all is easy.

I want to tell you about my dream :) Hi! I'm Russian girl. I am 14 y.o. (yeah, I'm so young). I hope that you'll want to speak with me despite my age. Two years ago I became interested in Japan. I became to read a lot of books about it, watch Japanese films and anime. I tried to find a book about Japanese history but I cann't do it in Russia. Now I have a lot of magazines about it and some things from Japan :) I think that Japanese people is good. When I think about Japanese I repenset a polite and nice persons. Probably, I don't know about Japan a lot, but I want to learn so I'll glad to communicate with Japanese. I am afraid that I'll not get answer of Japanese. In future I'll want to live in Japan and learn Japanese language. I hope that you can help me in it. Thanks for reading this short text :)