人生のこと そんなこと毎日を考える。 その人生が一体なんです。 それに、生きているのためにわ何。 毎日働いている、でも時々不安になる。 一人暮らしし、お金がないし、未来が見えないし。 嗚呼、人生がめんどくさいね。 やっぱりパンになりたい。

Back 1 I've been away for a while since I forgot the password to this site. My absence was also partially due to the fact that I had been busy dealing with endless trifles in my uneventful life. Fortunately, I’ve got the password back through the email address I registered this site with. I feel glad that I am able to use this site again. A sequence of things had happened during the period I was absent. In the last article I mentioned that I had begun my life with a new job in a newly-rented flat. The hope (or expectation, or any name you would like to call it), which I thought the new job was going to bring to me, has already been substituted by some more real and concrete ideas such as tiredness, anxiety and disappointment. To make things clearer for readers (if there is anyone reading this), and to avoid myself being called unsatisfying or ultra-pessimistic, I am going to add more details on the several months in my recent life. Life…Life of mine has been a certain kind of routine, which is rather stale and predictable, while at the same time, it is exhausting. A long time ago when I was not yet beaten by the cruelness of reality, I though life could only either be excitingly exhausting or comfortably boring, but it would never be any other way round, if you know what I mean. But now, my life seems have been fallen into the worst collocation, which is, yes, boring and exhausting.