最近好难过 最近总是很难过，压抑得不行了，也不敢宣泄一下情绪，怕被别人瞧不起，怕自己看不起自己。我们都分手那么久了，可是你总是能成功的影响我的心情。我好想去找你啊，可是我凭什么去找你呢？你有了女朋友，生活很好，可是我不好。现在觉得哪里都不安全，怕人家看出来我有心事，心事其实很简单，就是我很思念你，但是不能见你。在微博上写个心情人家都会盯着我，写个日记怕被人家偷看，悟出宣泄的情绪。写在这里，希望别人的看不懂。

long time no see! Hi ,friend ,how are you ? Yesterday ,my classmate asked me that do you still togerther with your boyfriend ? then ,im told her that he have GF but not me . in fact ,1 year and 4months is past ., i though i can forget it but im lose control now cuase of im still love him as ever is reality . my friend Allen told me that past is past ,you should feel luck he is out of your life . Im working in a garment company now ,my customers from the all ove the word .1 month ago ,i was meeting a customer form the India and he visited our factory . we are discuss with each other in our show room .he told me like that if you sleep with me i will give you big order when my boss and colleage all got out .What a bad men !im reallyfeel angry ,but im try t o clam down and told hime : im just hope tou estabished good relationship with you on business ,and the job is more than find a boy , honestly , i would like to find a chinese man . than after ,he said :but have so many girl would like to do that ,why not try it ,is good for you .im really crazy and growl :your country is so poor ! Because of the slack in international banking right now ,its really diffcult to cooperation with others ,the customers always give the lowre price and ask high quality .opp ,life is so difficult . I have plan is go to trip with my grandmom .my grandmom have 70 years old .im really love her . i hope to she everything will be better ,have good health is very inprotant . now im really skin now ,i want to get fat ,but i dont know what can i do Cantton Fari is coming to now , i have a lot of job waiting for me , really trid !but go for it !

about love Actully ,i dont wanna talk somthing about love ,but im raelly feeling sad and helpness .i find the new job in moment ,and i need learning so many new things .im feeling nevoures .but my boyfriend called me ,he find a new girlfriend now ,in fact ,we are broken up once a year ,but i still love him as ever .because im a this year's graduates ,so ,its important for me find a good job ,so ,i have plan if i find job and i will go to Xian meet him ,and he promise he will waiting for me .but now ,its beyond my campass .yeah ,its he freedom he can find gril .im really sad .i dont what can i do .but i thking i will be strong .and i wont give up .

my friend its good luck for me !i have a good friend from Pakistan.he name is vicky ,im a international trade ,but my english is not very well .i cant speak very well .and my grammar is poor.today my boss ask for write a email to our cusmer,,but i spent so many time write still not very well ,im relly nevrous ,i dont wanna lose this job,i like this way ,so .i was told the boss "i will try my best ,give me somtime,and i will do that very well "actully ,im so sad and today im was so busy. i worked so hard.even my all colleges are gone to home. cause of warking so late i lose my bus...my home is so far from my company ,its very important for me .then,i talked vicky about my worry .im really feeling happy ,he said :im here for you !my grammar is a big problen.can you help me ?

recently recently ,im really unluck ,actully,althoug im a Chinese teacher , my major is international trade ,i wanna find a job about my major .through the internetwork i finda job ,and get a job offre .yesterday ,im went job ,then i find the campany is nothing but a cheat .im really sad,i thingk im a fool .so stupid. is about my job . i was employed a forien teacher from Pakistan,i think he is a very nice man ,reaspandable ,panctien,harldly . long time no speak english ,i feel i foget everthing and i think grammar is very boring .im just can reading ,listen,and a littel wrriting ,but i cant speak cause my suck grammar.