Some silly thoughts of mine :) Ever since I remember I struggled fighting with myself. The constant battle of many constantly developing enemies - with different agendas, ideas, goals, urges - who somehow are connected in coherent whole. I guess wanting to have some insight and simplified idea of mind is pretty stupid, apparently. Is it better then not to try to understand mechanisms and interactions in mind itself, understanding yourself.. But.. I want to know who I am, and I want to be able to moderate that.. Is it correct that truth emerges from actions? Well if so.. what about lack of actions, what about wanting to take an action but couldn’t, or doing something involuntarily or under pressure. I strongly believe that we are shaped by genes and environment (people, ideas, places) that we interact throughout our lives.. At the same time I think that world is predetermined by game of chances. I think we are outcomes of randomized factors that we will be never able to describe or understand, what is cause of over-interpretations and like every gap used by people to their advantage.. Anyways, for me it’s beautiful concept of harmony arising from chaotic circumstances.