Some silly personal thoughts :)

I've been struggling with myself for as long as I can remember. A constant battle between many constantly developing enemies - with different agendas, ideas, goals, urges - who are somehow are connected as a concerted whole. Apparently, wanting to have some insight and a simple frame of mind is pretty stupid.

Is it better then not to try to understand the mechanisms and interactions of the mind itself, understand yourself?  But.. I want to know who I am, and I want to be able to moderate that..
Is it true that truth results from actions? Well if so.. what about the lack of actions, what about wanting to take an action but not being able to, or doing something involuntarily or under pressure.

I strongly believe that we are shaped by our genes and our environment (people, ideas, places) that we interact with throughout our lives. At the same time I think that the world is predetermined by a game of chance.
I think we are outcomes of randomized factors that we will never be able to describe or understand, what is the cause of over-interpretations and like every gap used by people to their advantage. (???)
Anyways, for me it’s a beautiful concept of harmony arising from chaotic circumstances.

Excellent writing and vocabulary :)