what the hell are you doing here, guys? "HI," "Where are you from?" "How old are you?" "Do you have skype?" "let's have video Chat." "please, just once." "plz. Only with me." "Are you here?" .. Don't you think it's stupid????!!! Damnit, It's very annoying and so rude! Please do not ask girls to have video chat!! it's stupid if girls refused you but you still beg for it. I have no idea if i met a guy like it, all i can do is block his message. TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN, if you still want to have video chat or do something else that make girls be embarrassed... GO AWAY AND FIND A GUY TO HAVE FUN TOGETHER!! good luck.

next week. final week. This is just a journal. It has been a long time that I haven't written anything here. so many things are troubling me that I can't even breath. I knew I didn't work hard in this semester and I couldn't get all A in every courses. I feel sorry about myself because this semester I chose to work instant of focus on my study. I don't know if I am wrong or not. Sometimes I think about what if I shouldn't have worked, but sometimes I feel happy when I have my own money can buy gifts for my family on holidays. I feel so tired this semester, everyday I feel sleepy and absent-mind I don't know why. Many I just too tired. I passed exit exam for writing these days. I was shocked and couldn't believe it when I saw my B number on the board. After that I found out that my grade was the lowest one in the pass number list. Anyway, I was so happy that I even forgot I still need to take final exam next week. However, I heard from my teacher today, she said people who passed exit exam need to take the other exam on next week for grammar. If I pass, I don't need to take grammar and writing class anymore and I can go head to choose college courses. The reason why I took ESL programs is to pass exit exam. But I feel I don't have any confident at it right now. I know it should be easy for me because I have been learning English for a long time. that is the one of things that troubles me. the other thing is my poor spoken English. The day before yesterday, Jonathan gave me a call and we had a very good conversation ( only for my opinion). However, Because I am not good at talking. I was using a wrong word to describe him. I said " you are so mean". but I didn't know what actually it means but I did say it and repeated several times. I should know it had problem because I can felt he was hesitate after I told him "mean". I didn't mean he is mean; in contract, he is my only friend that willing to call me and be patient to listen to me in the U.S. and I still feel guilty of my mistakes.