How I spend My Years Part 1 My mother is a kindergarten teacher so when I was 5 and 6 years old, I studied with my mom at the kindergarten. My mother taught me how to read ABC and I really like going to kindergarten because I know my mother will always be with me. Besides that, when I was still 5 years old I love drinking milk from the bottle but it was too embarrassing as my friends would laugh at me, so I will secretly drink the milk under my mother’s table. Plus, I don’t like wake up early in the morning. So almost every day my father would carry me while I was sleeping into the car and when I got to the school my mother will help me dressing. It was totally fun at that time. Then, I got enrolled into primary school which is just located in front of my house. It really doesn’t take a minute to go to the school from my house because my house was in the school’s quarters. But, as usually I would woke up really late in the morning and only when the bell was ringing I would step out of my house. Every day many students would hang around waiting for their parents around my house so my father decided to start selling ice cream to the students. Every day I got to eat ice cream without buying but sometimes I had to help my father at the shop and it was totally tiring. My father also a primary school’s teacher so when I was 10 years old my father got transferred to my school. It was really not fun as all the teachers would have high expectations from me as I’m a teacher’s daughter. Luckily I’m quite a good student and always scored during exam therefore I don’t embarrass my father.

Once in a while Do you have a person that you really adore, respect and look up? I guess it’s a lie if you don’t have one. Even babies do have one; their parents. I have a lot of people that have been my role model since I can remember. The Prophet Muhammad SAW, my parents, and my brother. But, among my friends, there is a person that I admire. When I first met him, I just see a normal, tall and skinny boy. We used to study in the same school but in the different class. So, I never notice him until there was a time when I want to call my friend, I suddenly got wrong number and called him. That is the start of my friendship with him. He is a patient guy, very patient as he will not get angry with me whatever I do. It’s his nature not to get angry at other people and he always give me advises. He is also a caring person that sometimes I get carried away. As a friend I really treasure him. After quite sometimes knowing him, I start to learn to be patient and more mature. I try not to get snap quickly but sometimes it just happen. One thing I learn from him that whatever people say, just ignore it and be cool about it as it will not bring me any benefit. Then, things got more complicated as my feelings for him start getting deeper. My biggest weakness is that I can’t hide it. My other friends can see it right through me that I already fallen for him. But, I just know that I’m not good enough for him. He know that I like him but he pretend that he don’t know about it and I just pretend that he don’t know I like him. It may seem simple but I really don’t want to destroy our friendship so that’s the only way I guess. So right now, I want to be his best friend that he can always count on and will be there for him anytime as he will definitely do the same to me.

Your attitude in love Recently, I read something in a book and I would like to share it with everyone. Imagine that you are in a situation for an example you have a best friend and you want to give him or her surprise birthday cake. But you don’t know what your best friend’s favorite is. In this situation, what will you choose? 1. Cheese cake 2. Fruits cake 3. Chocolate cake 4. Cream cake If you choose cheese cake then apparently you are a dedicated person in love. You will love your partner forever and there will be no other person for you. Anyhow the person is not your soul mate you will dump your partner without any doubt. If you choose fruits cake you maybe a person that when you start dating, you will love your love wholeheartedly. Although you have many choice to choose, in the end you are a loyal one. Then, for the chocolate cake person, you have an elegant personality. Without you realize, you made a lot of people attracted to you. You don’t want to hurt you fans but at the same time you feel guilty. If you choose cream cake, then congrats you are the same as me. Although I’m not quite agree with this but it says that you are a naïve person. You never thought of cheating to your partner. Complicated relationship will make you uneasy. Therefore, you will always be by your lover only. In the end, you don’t really have to believe in those. You are what you are and find your happiness in your way.

Life as a robot Every day I wake up 6.30 in the morning. Then I take a shower, pray, eat breakfast, taiso, and then go to school. After 5 o’clock I back to my dorm doing my things and then I do my homework. After that I eat, and when at night I study again. You can see that my life is full of study, I can accept that as I already choose really hard course which is mechanical engineering. Plus, it is also in Japanese. The point that I want to say is I do the same thing over and over again until I really don’t have any idea. Since I was born, all that I did was studying, eating, playing and finish my parents money. Then, when I entered my current college I met someone who changed my point of view. My life isn’t just doing those things. I mean it is actually isn’t the important thing in my life. I don’t want doing the same thing over and over again in my entire life and not knowing the meaning of it. For an example, in the future I work to get money to buy car. For what I need a car? As it make me easier to go to work. For what I need to go to work? So that I can get more money. Then, if I get more money I’ll buy more expensive car. After that, the same things repeat again. So after that, I set my mind that I do not study to a get good job or big house or any other things. There is more of it and I’m going to achieve it, if God wills it. So right now I don’t think that I live a robot’s life anymore and I hope I can change myself more in the future.

The awkward moments Lately people always type about their awkward moment whether on the facebook or twitter. I find that it’s quite interesting as sometimes I always experience the same awkward moments as theirs. So I wonder if mine‘s is the same as theirs. For me, the awkward moment is when you were talking with your friend on the phone and then suddenly both of you got silent for a moment. Then when you want to call someone and in the end you end up call someone else because of the same name in the phonebook and you just realised about it after a few minutes later. Another awkward moment is when your teacher asks you to read out load, and you don't even know the page that they're on. Then your teacher is pointing at you and you’re not sure if it’s really you. Lastly, my awkward moment is when I want to make an entry about “The awkward moments” and after halfway I realised that I don’t know what else to type.

If I Were a Boy If I were a boy even just for a day I'd roll out of bed in the morning And throw on what I wanted And go drink beer with the guys If I were a boy I think I could understand How it feels to love a girl I swear I'd be a better man If I were a boy I would turn off my phone Tell everyone it's broken So they'd think that I was sleeping alone Beyonce – If I Were a Boy I’m a normal girl. Not too girlish, not too feminine and maybe not too boyish. I love pretty shoes, expensive clothes, cute purses and make up. I love k-pop, books, surfing the Internet and I definitely don’t like watching football like other guys would do. I’m afraid of insects because they are too small and I scream really loudly during watching horror movies. Still, if I were a boy I don’t think that I will get hard time for liking all of those things as everyone has their own preference and style. But if they call me gay I will just punch them as I’m already a guy and my strength will be more tougher than a girl. But, I wonder if there might be any girl that would like to date me as I’m not too manly and sensitive guy. Imagine having a boyfriend that looks like your girlfriend. Sharing the same hobbies, same taste in fashion and maybe more girlish than you. I hope that if I were a man I can have more male hormones so that I can be the dream guy of other girls. That’s every man’s dream I guess. I would treat the ladies right. I’ll respect every girl who deserves to be respected. She would trust me and she would run to me every time she’s in need and every time…I’ll be there for her to make her smile and feel better. I’ll treasure her heart and never break it as for your information; women’s heart is really fragile. I have always dreaming that as a man, I’ll get to wear anything that I want without worry for other people’s comment. Whether the color is not matching, or the shirt is too big or too small and other stuff. Besides, I get to wear short pants without worry if my legs are pretty or ugly. Then, as a guy I don’t have to really take care of my skin by putting lotion every night, wearing sun block cream every time going outside, and many other things that usually cost you lots of money and times too. As you can see, every month, many women will experience menstrual pain and it caused abdominal cramping or dull ache that moves to lower back and legs, headache, nausea, hot tempered and many more. Then, can you see how fortunate it is if I were a boy.

Tales of Bro Ted My name is Bro Ted. It is a short form of my name, Brown Teddy Bear. I don’t like my name because it looks like I’m a girlish teddy bear but of course I’m a pure male bear. I was born in a factory which is I don’t know where and apparently I have thousands of brothers and sisters. We used to be together but I got separated from them when there was a big fat ugly girl took me away. Huh!! I really wish my master would be a cute sexy and pretty girl. I guess world is not fair. In the house, I have my very own space on the bed. Every night I will sleep with my master and every time I will feel like dying as she will hug me tightly until I couldn’t breathe. What an annoying master. I will be very thankful if she could leave me alone on the bed so that I can have a peaceful time to sleep. But she never responds when I told her to leave me alone. I guess my voice is not loud enough. Not only that, she is a very hot tempered girl and this make it worse for me. Whenever she feels upset, she will use me as her punching bag. My whole body is hurt everyday and I used to think to run away but my legs just don’t want to move. I wonder why. I really hate her and right now I’m making a plan for my revenge. It will be a perfect plan for her. So you all have to wait for my revenge and my last advice is don’t mess with the teddies.

Manga Freak Part 2 Last 2 weeks, I went to an event that calls Game Anime Manga Party. Really, I never heard about it and I just found out about the event from my friends. I used to know that there are these kinds of events in Malaysia but I don’t really think that I could actually get a change to being a part of it. I went to the events with my friends and when I finally got there I was being extremely excited as I got to see so many cosplayers that I used to see in the magazine. For the people who don’t know, cosplayers are the people that dress up as their favourite anime/manga/video game character for fun. It's usually done at conventions and such. Of course I met the character that I really wanted to meet that is Naruto and there are other few of the cosplayers that caught my eyes. Then as usual I bought some new mangas and other stuff. Maybe there are some people that don’t get it but who cares as long as I love it. I got lots of photos and then I meet some new friends which share the same hobby and it really fun. I wish that I can go to more of this event in the future and it will be blast.