Chinese new year is no doubt the most important festival in China, but it is also the most exhausting one, because there are all kinds of parties and getting-togethers, also, chinese like to hold a lot of joyous occasions during this time, so these days my biological clock has been totally thrown into confusion. I go to bed around two or three o’clock in the morning but get up at about 7 o’clock, for there are several occasions await. Every night when I get home, I do not even have the energy to remove my makeup. Without enough sleep my head is about to explode at any minute. When I go visit friends and relatives, I am not realy listening to them, I just keep smiling and nodding , pretend like I am interested in their conversation ,but actually all the other things are a blur to me.

In the past week, I have joined in four engagement ceremonies, their weddings are in the near future. All those couples are younger than me. I did not know that in modern times, there are still so many people like to getting married in such young age. Some of them have already gave birth to their children at about eighteen or nineteen. The most ridiculous one happened to a family friend, he went to blind date a girl who was introduced by his aunt, and they decided to hold the engagement ceremonies in two days. To be honest, the girl is not pretty at all, at least I don’t see any attractive traits in her. He said he’s already 22 years old, he doesn’t have time to waste anymore. I am starting to doubt that maybe his matching requirement for his lifemate is that: only if it is a she!!!

I am not a big fan of marriage, especially not when I’m still young, I haven’t enjoy enough freedom yet, I would rather have a boyfriend for a lifetime but do not get married to him. My mom always thinks I am crazy, actually it is not my fault, when my mom asks me to learn something such as cooking or cleaning she would say how will you please your husband if you don’t know how to cook, or will you be still so lazy if you got married ? She makes marriage sounds like a hotel, the difference is that women are the waitresses working there but men are there for five-star service!! Anyway, I’m not graduated from housewife college, and men have more enery, shouldn’t they take more responsibility of housework?

Another interesting thing is that many people still have conservative mind caring about whether should the bride comes to live with the groom’s family or the reverse, they think that if they keep the couple at home, they will get more taken care of. That is totally nonsense, it is all about filial piety. If your children don’t love you , it would be useless to keep them staying with you. And the problem is that many families now have only one child due to China’s one child policy. So people argue about it over and over. It is quite amusing to see them quarreling. I tend to have a cup of hot tea in my hands sitting there and enjoying their show, not that my I do not have sympathy, but my sympathy doesn’t like to keep me company when I am sleepy and exhausted.

So much about my holiday, and it is not over yet. My brain is blank even though I’m typing now , I am more like a walking corpse recently.

Yesterday, my mom asked me to watch a news on TV broadcasting that a college girl has been cheated and raped when she went to meet her online friend. My mom is a teacher, as a reasult of her occupation disease, she likes to treat me like a little kindergarden student and give me speeches full of common senses and insane quotes from celebrities, philosophers and poets, making me feel like I’ve passed and went back time to listen to Chairman Mao’s prop speech--- “ dear comrades, it’s high time that we focus on our goal, fight together till the bright future comes.”

My mom signed “what a poor girl, her life has been ruined ,what would you do if it were you?”  and there we go, “ a girl should not be too naive and believe whatever strangers say”------Yeah,I wish I could be naïve but my little innocent heart has been crashed and destroyed by the harsh society . “you see , she should’ve had a bright future filled of all kinds of happyness and joyness waiting for her, but she was sabotaged by online love, what a pity!!” ------Well, I don’t see any pity, that girl deserved it, who would be that stupid to give personal information to any stranger. It is girls’ fault don’t know how to protect themselves. As for online love, seriously ? She must have read a lot of romantic novels to have faith in those bullshit. “ the rapist is now in prison, but what is the point, the crime has already been commited ” ------What? Why blame the rapist, it’s ture that the rapist is evil, but it’s also the girl’s fault not to be smart. A college girl is an adult, she can think independently, she should be clearly what is right to do and take responsibility of what she has done, she should be thankful that she can enter a college being so foolish. “you know what the ancient said ｀it is wrong to set others up, but it will never be too cautious to watch out in case someone stabs you in your back（害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无）＇ancient’s words can never be wrong, those are based on experience and wisdom” ------Yes , I never doubt what the ancients’ said because they are brilliant, they said that 2012 is the end of the world, so now everyday I live in pins and needles thanks to them. “you see, even a college student could be fooled , the world is much more complicated than you think , life is difficult, it is full of dangers ” ------ Well, I believe that most people think others are liars and they do things to reach certain goals. Last time I saw money fell out a boy’s pocket, I picked it up and gave it back to him, of course he said thanks, in a doubtful tone and stared at me as if I had three eyes. Do I have “thief” or “liar” written on my face? …

After my mom finished her speech, I found that I had a white hair , I don’t know whether her dull speech caused it, or it is because life is difficult.