Lost at words I don't know. I'm a failure. I just can't say it. You already know it but I don't have the guts to tell you the word which I have been hiding for years. I love you.

Living in a New World Thinking about the past is something that everyone cannot forget. Everyone can't help themselves of reminiscing how bad their memories were or how wounded they were at that time. But, as time goes, we adjust, learn and rise up from our mistakes. Little did I know that I was to enter such a very challenging battlefield. I wasn't aware how bloody it is. I didn't expected that such things will occur and catch me empty-handed. I never expected that I'll be a hero of my own story and search for a heroine to complete it. I pushed myself to remain standing. It was like a "survival of the fittest." I never thought that behind me is a very smart girl, the heroine of my story, who answers all my question; thus, not getting angry everytime I joke her about non-sense things. She's not that beautiful; but, everytime I'm with her, everytime I ask her, I feel a sense of relief. She's very different compared to other women in the battlefield. She's authentic, a woman of essence and a good friend, shall I say. But, time passes hastily, and I didn't know that we're about to take different roads. Still, she's what she is. She's my whole world back then. She's my everything. Hence, I realized, this is a kind of living in a new world. There's no perfect story. When you think that you've almost gotten what you're searching, the moment you say "Eureka!", you'll just wake up from the reality, that time flies and turns its back to you. You'll realize that you forgot something. And that's the word that will tell her how big is her part in your life and how she has changed your life. From junk to something worth-living. Truly, living in a new world is a lot of change. You've gotta face the fiercest surges in your existence. You have to stand up.

켄15_phl's notebook entry: Apr 24, 2011 세상이 이쁘나봐...근데, 사랑은 세상에서 잘 몰라요...내 가슴이 뛴다고 저거 폭탄이처럼...내 마음을 울어요... 내 삶이 너 함께하는 살고 싶어요...니 사랑을 지켜줄게요. 울지마라 줘요...슬픈 음악을 들을때, 나는 니가 기억하잖아요...난 나쁜 남자이야 , 미안해요...

ken15_phl's notebook entry: Apr 11, 2011 지금 필리핀에서는 참 더워네요...전 너무 피곤 해서 저의 머리가 아프고 있어요.

ken15_phl's notebook entry: Apr 06, 2011 와우! 싸인 드라마 정말 좋아요! 짱이다! 지금 제가 이거 보고있네요... ㅎㅎㅎ