Some Reflections After Reading Anne's Dairy Anne, I think she was kind of lucky in a way. She lived with a boy she liked for about 2years, in the same room, day and night. Isn't it somewhat amazing? Have you ever been in love with someone who didn't know about it? He was like a God in your life, you couldn't stop thinking about him. You'd be so nervous and afraid to do anything in front of him because you were worried you might make mistakes which would make him laughed at you or make you less cool from his sight. Being in love with someone who doesn't know about it is beautiful, graceful. While, The worst part is when you found he was just like everyone else, nothing more then a normal guy we see everyday. That's heartbreaking sad.

Live alone for the first time It's trange that when I travelled to Beijing alone,I didn't feel lonely at all,just very relaxed,closed my eyes and enjoyed the life. But now I am in a city that I am very familiar to ,while all my families,my best friends are not with me .I , oddly, feel extreamly lonely... I guess people may merely hate change in familiar circumstances or something.

The begining of the change To be honest, I'm a little bit tired of the environment I live now. I do need some changes. But not simply waiting for the following comings what people think it should be .I wanna meet differnet people, do different things to fulfill myself.It's frustrated that feel old but not wise.

It's not just failed it It's not about control yourself to make a better future,the thing is , are you happy now by doing those ? Don't ever try to find any excuses, they may comfort you, but still can't evade the truth that you are escaping which you've already knew deep inside. Everytime,precisely like this, you failed, you regretted, you do it again. Because, sometimes I even think, making mistakes that you've knew before makes you excited.I don't wanna be nagging like a mother, but it's not cool. To do things that nobody knows the consequences is awesome, and you should keep balance all the way for its risk. After all, don't be a stupid bimbo.that's disgusting .

Alicia's notebook entry: Apr 15, 2011 There days have been crazy.I really want to figure out what I need,maybe I already knew it ,but just still can't see it clearly. He is not the one I need,I know for sure for these days' contact,then why do I keep thinking about those shit? babe, you are not a child anymore,just back to the earth. It should be easy,just drop off what you don't need and get those really good for you. Think about grammer instead of him, mind the coming MIT instead of him.Life goes on without anyone. Easy.

Alii's notebook entry: Mar 15, 2011 I finished a book today. The author is awsome! He knows how to enjoy his life and really did it. As the proverb goes, you can only young once. For this reason,I decide to do my utmost to live the life I want. In addition, God bless Janpanese and Yunnan people.Everything will be fine!