It's not just failed it It's not about control yourself to make a better future,the thing is , are you happy now by doing those ? Don't ever try to find any excuses, they may comfort you, but still can't evade the truth that you are escaping which you've already knew deep inside. Everytime,precisely like this, you failed, you regretted, you do it again. Because, sometimes I even think, making mistakes that you've knew before makes you excited.I don't wanna be nagging like a mother, but it's not cool. To do things that nobody knows the consequences is awesome, and you should keep balance all the way for its risk. After all, don't be a stupid bimbo.that's disgusting .