Last week I had a lesson with my professor in school. It’s my worst experience in school ever.
I asked him if he could help me to prepare an audition and he told me he won’t help me to do any audition now because I’m not good enough for him so far. Even if I go to the audition by myself and get the job, he <em>won’t admit that I’m one of his students. </em><- Confusing
His opinion is okay for me. Or 'I can accept his opinion.'
And then he asked me to cook dinner for him at my place after our next lesson next Monday and he suggested we go grocery shopping together.
I told him it’s too difficult for me. I’m afraid to screw it up. To cook for you is more difficult than to <em>act?</em> for you. He said <em>'</em>I’m going to eat your food<em>, </em>not you. You don’t worry about it.<em>' </em>I said I’m nervous. He said if you don’t want to cook then I can take you to a restaurant and we can have dinner together. (Yes, he didn’t say to invite me?? After our lesson, he text me a voice message, his way of speaking was extremely soft and weird. He was so different!
Things came to me so suddenly and I was too shocked to react. It took two days to process and then I started to feel angry and anxious.
It forced me to make a decision right now: to move to Poland to study or to go home.
It’s my last time to try living in Europe so I decided to move to Poland.
What will life be like in Poland? I don’t know. I’m both looking forward it and tired of changing my life again. How can my feelings become so complex? Will I be happy or lonely ?
No matter whether I'm happy or lonely, it’s life and I have no choice but to be brave.
When life gives a challenge like this, I can only accept it gracefully and smile confidently. I wish myself all the best and I will focus on my study with my original passion.
<em>I wish you all the best too. Sorry to hear about that unfortunate incident. </em>
