Words Words like birds… fly… air something… give us wings. Words like sun… shining… lighting up… I see something. Words like a merry-go-round… make us rotate… invite us for the same movement of the Earth. Words like a seeking… see king… see something uplifting and special.

Un dèfi Bonjour, Je m’appelle Antonio, j’habite à Brasilia, le capital de Brésil. Cette anné j'ai décidé d'apprendre le français, au moins un peu. je pense qu'en apprenant le français, je peux élargir mes connaissances, car la littérature en français est vraiment riche. aussi je voudrais parler avec une certaine confiance dans l'avenir. Au revoir!

En bok Ibland tänkar jag på livet, på mina känslor, på min själ. Jag vill inte tänka på det, men det är nödvändig. Något säger alltid till mig: “tänka!”. Jar har tänkte om Gud och tillvaro. Hela tiden. På natten i mina drömmar också. Förresten i tisdags drömde jag om en stor kvinna som talar med mig långsamt. Hon sa: “Antonio, du älskar bara böcker”. Prompt svarade jag med en fråga: “böcker?”. Hon stängd sina ögon och gråtade. Den här kvina blev i en bok. Jag bestämmade mig att öppna boken and jag gjorde det. När jag lägger mina händer I det, bokkvinnan flög.

Birth (inspired in Golden Dawn - Golden Opportunity, by Patricia J Tausz) A fear floods my heart. A weird fear. It is as if something wanted to come out from me and say something. In fact, something wants to be born. I feel the pain. Something desires a dawn, a beginning. But, not just a dawn… it wants a remarkable one, with an impressive pink sky. I cannot see what it is. I feel, with affliction, that something wants to have a body. Something wants to penetrate the factual reality. What is it? What is it? This uncertainty disturbs my soul. What is it? Wait a minute. Wow! My first guess: it is the unknown. What is…? What…? W…? W… Wo… Wor.. Word. Eureka! It is. A word. A word eventually shows up. It wants to feast. I also want it, because my uncertainty away rolled and my fear and anguish wore off. Such a soothing feeling! But, hold on. Hold on! My soothing quickly falls through. The certainty bites the dust. Word. Wor… Wo… W…? Word? Which word?

Frankenstein - part 2 [there is a previous text, called part 1] However, some day after he had performed almost the entire project, he became more and more uncomfortable with it. He was afraid about the consequences of his acts and thought: People in the future might curse me as the creator of these new and terrifying creatures who only wanted to destroy and murder everything they saw. (p. 73). With this heavy guilt, he decided to destroy what he had built, by breaking the body in pieces. He seemed crazy, without reason. Victor was a neutral and placid scientist, but sometimes his emotions were uncontrolled. Something so powerful started to dominate him. Victor also was a monster, sometimes. Sometimes the monster also was a human. I am wondering right now: what the real difference between VF and HM? I do not know, but maybe the monster´s hate is more dangerous than VF´s one? Anyway, the VF´s hatred is so dangerous for himself. This feeling was really destroying him. Finally, the monster, so frustrated with the destruction of his future partner, threatened and cursed Victor, by saying: Why have you broke your promise? Why have you taken away all my hope? I will make you regret this. Am I the only creature in this world not to have a wife? By destroying her you have destroyed any hope I had. I promise you, that because of what you have done you will live the rest of your life in fear and despair. (p. 74). With it, Victor would have to live with a hard threaten. Actually the threaten is unavoidable in any situation. If he destroys the female, the male monster can kill him and his beloved people. If he gives life to female creature, he could be cursed and punished for many people, including beloved one. As we used to say here in Brazil: “se correr o bicho pega, se ficar o bicho come”.

Frankenstein - chapter five - Part 1 I am reading Frankenstein, by Mary Shelley and I have decided to write down here my thoughts about this great novel. This chapter shows me that HM had a significant resentment about people in general. It is possible to understand such feeling, since HM felt himself a product of an overwhelming rejection from people. HM tried many times to be in touch to other people, but all of them ran away from him. Everyone was afraid of him and reject him at first sight. He lived an unfathomable loneliness as he were a convict in a far island. It should be noted that loneliness was not his choice. He desired for a companion from another person who could like him or even love him. The rejection and the loneliness fill out his heart of hatred and your hands of revenge. So he started to do terrible things, apparently with the goal to hurt his creator (VF), such as killing the VF´s brother. He wanted to draw attention, be present in some way. By the way, after killing the little boy who was VF´s brother, HM found a necklace and, in it, a pendant with a picture of a beautiful and gentle-looking woman. Instead of this object evoked him a great feeling, this image caused him a strong feeling of rejection. He started to think that this woman, as soon as saw him, would become afraid and would run away, desperate, like everyone did. On the other hand, curiously, a particular feeling and desire started to come in him. It was a hope that stimulate him search his creator and request to him something special. Let´s see: I want you to make me a companion who will live with me. She must be as horrible and deformed as I am. You will do this for me. You have no choice. (p. 70) VF felt sorrow for the human monster and decided to come true the wish. He had a feeling of compassion of HM. VF´s decision was based on heart, not in rationality. There is also a feeling of threat from the HM, since he promised to VF destroy him and everyone around him, if Victor didn´t perform his desire. Over the days, VF became ambivalent and he didn´t know what should do, if he achieved his project of build a new creature or not. He was too afraid to start his work, but thought the monster could hurt him and even another people if he didn´t make the monster a female. [there is the second part (continuation), in a following text]

Frankenstein - Chapter 3 I am reading Frankenstein, by Mary Shelley, and I would like to share my ideas. In this chapter Victor Frankenstein discover that his little brother was murdered by the monster that he created and this scientist feels much guilt and suffering because of that. In addition, an innocent person is condemned for such crime and it seems to increase the level of his fault/guilt. Let´s see some stretch about the thoughts of Victor: "Two innocent people, my young brother and our sweet Justine, were dead because of me, but as began to think more clearly, I also saw that the grief and suffering of Elizabeth [a person adopted for the Victor´s parents. In this part of the story she is an adult], my father and all those around me was also my fault. " Due to these feeling, Victor, most of the times, needs to be alone in order to feel calmer and well. Also he begins to feel rage and hatred about the monster and, because of that, he wants to extinguish it. He thinks, if the monster were killed, all his tragedy and fault would be destroyed with the creature. However, he meets by chance (runs into) the monster. I think, in this chapter, Mrs. Shelley bring us a kind of thought about the act of create, especially creating something so special, such as a conscious life. Victor Frankenstein did an act properly concerning to God. Creating life and, even more, life with conscience/awareness. It is like the old Prometheus, who stole the fire from the Greek gods. We need to reminder us that the fire represents the conscience and this semigod was punished with so much suffering. Victor Frankenstein knew, like Prometheus, the secret of God. In its turn, the creature suffers so much with loneliness and lack of love. Everybody is afraid of the monster. It frightens everyone. Even its creator wants to destroy it. It seems that the monster decide to kill the little boy (brother´s Victor) because of a big sadness that was covered by rage and frustration. Also in order to draw the attention from Victor. In this chapter, I felt, we need to cope with the Victor´s and Monster´s loneliness and rage. Both feel the same thing. It reminds me the “Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde”. Maybe the monster is a dark side of Victor Frankenstein.

Viskningar och Rop Bergmans film Viskningar och Rop är den främsta anledning till att jag bestämde mig för att lära mig och studera svenska. Jag kommer ihåg första gången jag tittar på det film. Det var 2005. Jag erkänner att jag blir rädd med många saker och djup ämnen som jag såga på det film. Jag var fångad. På följande dag, jag var till bibliotek av universitetet till sök böcker om Bergman. Jag spenderade hela eftermiddagen att läsa om Bergman och några dagar senare jag bestämde mig att köpper några filmer från det filmdirektör och jag har sett dem sedan dess. På augusti 2018, så småningom, genom en insikt, jag undrade varför hur skulle vara att studera svenska och jag började.