it always pains to learn a new thing I am not feeling well today. I was trying to practice my bicycle. I finally learned how to ride it. But just when I thought I could handle it well, I fell down on the road. What a shame! I went straight to the school clinic after I parked my bicycle because my skin was scrapped. And it still aches now! I still have some difficulties to control and balance. Considering my injury, I will take a rest for some days. Nevertheless, it always pains to learn a new thing. All I can do now is to believe the saying: Practice makes perfect. I hope I could master it as soon as possible.

my ambition is never at rest When I was a junior school student, I wish I could enter a good high school which is not located in my hometown. When I satisfactorily entered an excellent high school in Xiamen, I wish I could enter a famous university far away from my province. When I finally passed the college entrance examination and be admitted to a renowned university in the northeast of China, I wish I could study abroad. When I surprisingly got an offer from an abroad university, then I started to dream that I could study in one of the best universities in the world. It seems that my desire will never be gratified. And my ambition is never at rest.

05.24 My professor just said that I was fit for a scholar because I was intelligent and diligent. Honestly, I have never thought about becoming a scholar. I have no idea what it means. And I was extremely confused with the question what kind of person I am going to be. I just love learning and I have much fun. However, I actually skipped classes quite often when I was at university two or three years ago. I was so morbid at that time with mental illness. It just didn't make sense to me to sit in the classroom, acting like a good student, studying hard to get good scores. I mean, what's the meaning of all these things? Fortunately, I was recovered from that sickness. It turned out that I still love learning. Without anyone to pushing me and cramming the doctrine into my mind, I enjoy learning new interesting things by myself. Learning is enjoyable when it just for learning, not for a good reputation, money or expectations from others.

2017.5.24 Sometimes, I am not sure who I am, where I am going to, why do I come here. Time just flew away and I was overwhelmed by so many tasks that I scarcely reflected on myself. I don't know the value of the life. I just want to do what I want without a clear reason for it. I have no idea where my life will lead me to, but I am satisfied with it now. Is it OK? Will my luck always come alone with me? Maybe I should stop thinking about nonsense like these.

I made a progress I made a progress when I practised riding a bike this afternoon. I just keep saying to myself, "Don't give up. You know you can make it! Be relaxed!", then I rode a very short distance for the first time. Although I still can not control the bike freely and keep the balance all the time, I started to believe that I can do it sooner or later as long as I keep practising.

I should not give up Today, I was not energetic. I don't know why was that, but I have lied on the bed in the afternoon for 2 hours without a will to move. I just tried to practice riding a bicycle and I got so exhausted like that! Besides, I made food for myself but I forgot to buy some seasoning. You can imagine how terrible it tasted. Reluctantly, I ate it all. What an awful day! However, I just received an E-mail.from my professor. Unexpectedly, he praised me for my studies. I was very happy about that. Although I have so many troubles and failures in my life, I should be confident about myself. Because it is my first time living abroad, I need to learn a lot of new things. It is common to fail and I should not give up.

I bought a bicycle today It is not easy to learn a skill from the beginning. But it will never be late to start anytime. Today, I tried to ride a bicycle for the first time. Thanks to my friend, I could practice little by little with someone standing behind me so that I would not fell. But I still can not ride it successfully. It is too difficult for me. That maybe a shame for a person in my age who can not ride a bicycle. Honestly, I had not realized that I would need a bicycle until I came here. I used to live nearby the school, but now I live far away. It will be more convenient and cheaper to commute to school by the bicycle compared to the bus. I will keep practicing. I wish I could ride it as soon as possible.