One Day I Won't Need The Answer

After I read an article which talked about longevity, I remembered thought of my mother weirdly. then I guessed it's because she is of her no longer young age. It's cannot be more impolite than to say that I think my mother is such a less active and more neurotic woman and that I seldom miss her, even though now I am now far away from my hometown, but I have these thoughts anyway/but this is the truth. Once, I told others that it these thoughts (?-- specify what "it" is) could be excused if parents preferred their most brilliant child of them, but I don't think I can be forgave forgiven easily. Honestly speaking, I am tired of ignorance and comparison. and I want to be the proud pride of my parents one day, but I am such a common girl without any special strengthens, even in studying, so nobody will notices me if I am walking in the crowds. Unluckily, I have gradually I realized that I am becoming more and more similar to my mother because I have inherited all her bad personality traits, including such as pessimism.
I have been trying to make them notice me more and then like me even a little, but I finally gave up I lost myself. " Do they like you? " I asked myself, but there was no answer.

Willow,

This was a very interesting read-- good job! I must say, I had to guess what you meant sometimes, so please read my corrections carefully to ensure that I captured what you meant with the best clarity. Watch out for run-on sentences! I cut a few in half. Your English skills are really great; keep it up! I hope this helped :)