I hope...
Today is the 4th of May and it is already hot and 30 degrees in Madrid.
We are in phase zero of de-escalation. I am worried and think that I won't be able to go back to my previous life. I want to have a change in my life. Before the coronavirus, I was in a bad state of mind, stressed, tired, angry and I didn't like my work, the people. I was exhausted!.
Now, I think what I need is peace and calm, and time to think about me and about what I want in life.
For the first time I've had time for myself. Time to read books, to practice yoga, watch films and documentaries, write about whatever, listen to vinyl discs, all of kind music, practice exercises at home, speak with my friends and not be in a a rush. Also to enjoy the silence and doing nothing. It's wonderful!
My mind needed a rest, my universe needed a stop spinning. Going back to the real world is going to be difficult for me. I hope this time of reflection helps me to see that I was not happy. I have to understand that I have to make changes in my daily life. Stress is unnecessary in may life. I can do it, but I have to convince myself of it.