you say your actual life You always feel tired of the current situation and say that you'd like to find your real life,and then you changed,you altered,you tried to take on a new trip.But you just changed from one to another again and again wavering your minds and have no idea of what you really want and what actually the real life of yours.Indeed,there's no definitely an amswer or something waiting for you at last.That's just you experienced and came through those things and finally these all things constitute of you.