My Happiness

It is not possible to be absolutely happy in this world. Happiness is not something that you can measure by money or anything. Whether you are rich or poor, I believe your happiness depends on what you achieve. It does not depend on what you get by default.

During my childhood, my happiness was getting a new dress at EID. My happiness was watching “Alif laila” (a TV program). The day I did not study properly, I was not allowed to watch that program. I can remember, one day I had to solve fifty two math problems to get the permission to watch that program.

One day I visited one of my cousin’s friend’s house. I saw a computer. There after my happiness was inside a computer. I looked for a cheap computer in the newspaper to see whether there was any advertisement to sell  a computer so I could get one. Five years later, when I had my own new computer, I can not express how happy I was. First few days I was unable to believe that it was mine. I felt the same when I got my first Mac. I was grateful, I am grateful and I will always be grateful.

Like this, my happiness was inside a mobile phone. I desired a phone when everyone had one but I did not. My happiness was inside using internet when I did not. My happiness was using electricity when every hour we had load shedding. Even my happiness was inside walking distance till that day when my office was too far from my house. Even four years before, I dreamed if I would be able to stay near my office, then it would be a lot easier for me to work.

These days, all of these problems are solved but am I happy now? I do not think so. Why I am not happy at this moment? I still desire a lot. I am also very impatient. I have more impatience than  ever before. These days, my happiness depends on solving a problem, enjoying food at a restaurant. Sometimes I love to cook myself and if it tastes good then I feel happy. My happiness is inside visiting a new place. My happiness is inside traveling to other countries.