La Fin Je ne considère pas ce site comme mon site préféré depuis longtemps. J'en fais partie depuis près de 5 ans et j’y ai pris beaucoup de cours en ligne. D’un côté, j’admets que ces cours m'ont beaucoup aidé surtout au début de l'acquisition de connaissances. D’un autre côté, plus mon niveau de connaissances augmentait au fur et à mesure en apprenant comme autodidacte de manière efficace et ludique, plus j’avais du mal à trouver des professeurs qui me conviendraient par leur façon d’enseigner et dont le prix de leurs cours correspondrait à ce que je pourrais me permettre de dépenser. Mais ce site se voie ne proposer que les cours en ligne. Il se distingue des autres sites par ses possibilités qui enrichissent et valorisent le parcours d’apprentissage, par sa communauté contribuant pour tous son apport énorme et gratuit. Je peux dire que cela n’existe plus. Tous cela a été gâté en dépit du bon sens. Mais comment on peut expliquer les possibilités invérifiables de n’importe quel membre, qui à toute liberté et en quelques cliques, peut supprimer des contributions de grande qualité d’autres membres, même ose supprimer leurs profils ? Comment on peut le pardonner ? Et surtout, pourquoi tout cela ? J’ai vécu ici beaucoup de temps en craignant de ne pas devenir un point de mire de quelqu’un qui est en train de mauvais poil et qui par manque de satisfaction avec soi-même a besoin de nuire aux autres. Je n’en peux plus. Il n’y a plus de grandes choses à me retenir là. Un peu de crédits que je vais dépenser pour deux-trois cours ? Peut-être en quelques jours. Je m’en vais pour prendre du recul et pour continuer à apprendre ailleurs. C'est ma dernière entreée de mon carnet comme l'une des participants du défi qui ne pouvaient pas se dérouler librement.

30-day Writing Challenge: I did not give up (15/30) Part 3: I did not give it up Yes, that might’ve been the final straw for my piano which had to be sold, but that did not hold the truth for love for music whatsoever. With the possibility to listen to the music thanks to CD players and by streaming music online later I have had non-stop access to any music I’d like to listen. But whenever I listened to some piece of famous piano work, my hearth sunk. I always imagined myself sitting at the piano. I missed it. The time went by quickly, I had a demanding exhausting job, almost no free time and then like a bolt from the blue I was cursed with the illness which hit my fingers, hands, wrists. My hopes for playing the piano one day again were dashed. Some fingers were damaged, twisted, swollen and in constant pain. That was a turning point for me. I stopped working and began doing what I wanted and liked. I managed to get over the most difficult period and finally stopped taking all the strong and damaging medications about two years ago. And guess what? Last year in February, on advice of my French tutor who works as a piano teacher in his real live (many thanks Jonathan!!!), I bought a new, a cheap digital piano and before I know it, I was playing the first pieces of music. I had to learn from scratch, because I forgot even reading music sheets, but a few great piano teachers have helped me so far. Whenever I am playing the piano I am over the moon. I forget the world beyond myself, I always express my heartfelt gratitude to my fingers and I praise them for doing their job extremely well. And this is the icing on the cake - they have stretched out miraculously somehow and I do not know what the pain is in them for more than 16 months! Never, never, give up!! Thank you for the corrections in advance!

30-day Writing Challenge: Never give up (14/30) This is Part 2 to my previous notebook entry: If you've ever sacrificed your hobbies for another hobbies, you should’ve made sure it was really worth it. And I did so. In the middle of my piano learning stage, I was forced to stop playing the volleyball that I was really mad about because of the softness loss of my trained piano fingers. Being faced with a choice between two equally adored activities was like being torn between your mum and dad ending in divorce. I decided for the piano. When I left my parents’ apartment with my loved piano in and went to study at the university far away from home, I did not realise that I would lose my playing ability whatsoever. But if you stop playing any instrument and practicing on a regular basis for a long time, you will be losing even your basic competence little by little. Unfortunately, at that time with no possibility to play the piano regularly, with no access to good teachers or to some good music sheets to learn something new, I would come home one or two times a year and everything I could do then was only repeating the last piece of music that I had learnt at the local music school. Finally, after getting married my playing abilities went really down in flames. My new family, a child, a job, then exchange of a room of our apartment with a piano in for a room for our son where there was no space for a piano, that all made the final straw to my love for piano music. Or not? (To be continued.) Conclusion? Never give up anything you are keen on. It will not be worth it. Thank you for all the corrections in advance!!