Feel uncomfortable..... :( My feeling is very very bad today. I am not sick, just emotionally feeling bad because what I had thought up to be how I would be before I came back my home is very different from how I am now. I have my dream to immigrate in Australia after a few years and decided to stay in Japan as my first and last year of working and experiencing in Japan in my life. To accomplish my dream, first thing I should study more to get high level in IELTS test but I always watch TV instead of hitting books. I actually do not want to watch TV while studying but I do not have my own room to focus on study and shut noise off. Since I live in apartment, when one of members of my family turn on TV, the sound district me and I generally watch TV and spend too much time to solve one question or read whole article. I know this is really inefficient way to study... There is no public library near my home neither cafe. I do not have a Japanese driving lisence so that I don't allow to drive away to find a place. I actually have English test on this Sunday but I haven't reviewed that much. Hopefully I pass the exam and am qualified to take next level examination. Time is running out.... I have struggled so much about my second job. I can't tell exactly what I want to do but I would like to make some business no matter how small my business is, I really wanna try to earn profit using my idea. I have checked so much things on Internet but not all answers are on Internet. Of course I need a little fund at the beginning but I can't run out of my saving for now because I have trip to South Korea next Monday. I am just going there to chill and eat tasty food and relieve stress. Since my saving is very a little amount I have no enough money yet to spend for business.. I feel very uncomfortable being in this situation..... Today my notebook is very negative but I am usually very optimistic. Thank you for reading. I am sure that I feel better when I wake up. Good night everyone or good morning to people live in right opposite side of earth. Have a wonderful day.

Good day. Good evening! I wrote my wish and to do lists in this year on this Notebook last time, unfortunetelly something went wrong and it did not reflect here.. Well, I try to use this Notebook frequently to improve my english skill. Since I came back to Japan, I had a job interview and the company's manager really expected me for my English skill. I just graduated college in the Philippines and they asked me, "So do you speak English when you were in the Philippines?". I simply said "yes". Then the manager said to me, "then your English must be perfect because you were able to finish the college in abroad and used English during 5years of stay in the Philippines." I was like yeah... But even though I finish the college in abroad, it doesn't mean that my English is perfect. I will be working from first of February and I already have too much pressure. I will be working as a front stuff in hotel. Hopefully I can do well and make good relationship with workmates. I have anxiety already. Since I came back to Japan, I don't have any chance to speak to someone in English. So I would like to find language partner in Nagoya Japan. I had an idea to go to bar or night club to meet someone speaks in English but I do not like to meet in that kind of place. This is just my opinion but I think those people just want to hunt girls at that kind of places. Lol I would like to call for someone who can meet me up and be an exchange partner in Nagoya Japan. Please let me know !!!!! Thank you.

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2016(・・) Hi, everyone ! It has been long time since I logged in last time! In these past three month which I hadn't logged in, there were so many things I faced ! First I was finally able to finish all my academic subject in college. One of my subjects I took last term was Spanish. It was most difficult subject and I was very worried if I could pass. Although my Spanish professor was very kind at last and passed subjects to all student no matter how bad the outcome we got in final examination. If I failed the subject, I needed to stay longer in the Philippines and had to pay extra money for living and tuition. Knowing the result, l was really happy. Second, I came back to Japan after a year and half not to landing my home country. When I was in the Philippines, I missed Japanese food so bad. My family is very happy that I am back in Japan and let me try and eat all kind of food. So as you can guess, I gained weight even if I am on diet. Diet, the word doesn't suit me anymore. Third, my bf visited me in Japan. It was his first time to visit Japan and he enjoyed so much here. I am very glad that I was able to guide him and translate him into Japanese to English. On his birthday, we went to Tokyo from Nagoya and enjoyed in Tokyo Disneyland. It was also three years that I haven't been to. There are many more new things that happened to me. I wish this year bring more happiness to myself, family and everyone. This year I will start studying Chinese????

Hunting a job I've bothered these days for hunting a job. Since I am graduating in a few months, I need to look for a job. I had dream ever since I was a kid I wanted to be a flight crew so I chose to study in oversea to improve my language skill and learn different culture. My major is tourism management that offers many subjects about airlines, travel documents, destinations, country/city codes and many more. I am about to quit pursuing the dream because of physical demand that company seek for. Usually airline company recruit woman above 160 cm (5'2 ft). Unfortunately my height is 156 cm that usually candidates are asked to leave before interview due to the physical demand that they don't reach their arms on cabinet in the air plane. I can do nothing with my height. It doesn't matter how much I take an effort to be a flight attendant, my height would not higher... I asked myself what else I want to do in soon future. I would like to work at Japanese company as an employee assigned to different country. So I could travel and work at the same time and learn more about its country and people, explore myself.

Good day! Hi, there! It's been for a while since I logged in. I went to Hochiminh city in Vietnam a few weeks ago and it was really amazing. Good food, people, environment and culture! I just tried everything I was interested in and didn't really care about spending but price in Vietnam was very reasonable that I just spent USD150 for food, tours, transportation and entrance fee for 5days. It is definitely cheaper than Philippines. I prefer Vietnam more than Philippines in terms of food and cleanliness. I will absolutely go back again and try to spend a few month there! I really appreciate people helped me out when was there. While I was in Vietnam, I did realize again how language skills are important when you get a job and travel to another country. I could express what I want to say and have conversation but I still need more efforts to study English as my second language that I can fluently communicate with people without any barriers. But honestly I really have no idea how I can improve my English here in the Philippines. Compare to before, when I came here for the first time I improved a lot since my English skill was terrible that I couldn't even understand "how young are you?". A few words/ sentences I know was "Thank you" "How are you?" "I'm fine, thank you and you?" "sorry" and "see you". I would like to learn more with natives because people here speak mixture of Filipino(tagalog) and English that called Tagalish. I also speak Tagalish unconsciously.. ....... I know it is my last term in my uni this term. So I booked flights to Thailand, Cambodia, Taiwan and China within this year! I am so excited to travel and explore again^^