Hello :)

I'm new on this site, and I came here to practice my english - not because I need to, but because I've always been drawn to it. I can read anything in english and understand most of it. I make some translations on websites and I can even understand when people is are talking. But, somehow, I can't remember the words or what they mean when it's me who's going to use them. I've never practiced it properly. I have no one to talk to in this language, and when I was on in highschool the only thing they taught me was to say hello and other basic things.
I would like to speak fluently, and improve my grammar because I know it sucks. People could ("could" does work here, but I think most people would say "might") say that I should take classes, or study with textbooks, but it would be boring and I know I'd lose the interest on learning the language.

I am very shy and I've always been (This works, but usually people would say "I always have been"). It's hard for me to start a conversation - whereas they're whether it's with my friends or family or complete strangers. How am I supposed to talk with people I don't know in a language that makes me nervous cause I barely speak?

I hope I can find nice people here that has have the patience to deal with me. :) And maybe be helpful for those who want to learn some spanish. I'm not a good teacher though, but I'll do my best.

Excellent english, your grammar is really excellent. And I feel the same way about trying to start up a conversation in Spanish! Keep it up.

Selfies

Yesterday someone told me that, someday in the future, I'll regret not taking pictures of myself.

Honestly, I can't see why. Though it's probably true.

That doesn't mean I'm gonna start posting selfies everywhere, every damn day. However, I'll leave this -a picture- as a proof.
If someone or even myself wants to remember how what I looked like at eighteen, I want it to be with all and my freckles and dark circles under my eyes caused by all those restless nights of studying, and worrying about a future that, just maybe, turned out better than I think now ("turned out better than I think now" might work better as "might turn out better than I think it will right now," depending on what you mean). I want to see my flaws, the things that made me insecure back then, and I want to see the pink color on my cheeks, part of the youth that will never come back.

I want it to be the realest it can be. ("I want it to be as real as it can be" would be how this would usually be written. "Realest" isn't really a word, but it is sometimes used as slang in rap/among young people, so in context actually "realest" almost would work.)

Great job! The small suggestions I made to me sound slightly more native, but what you wrote is completely understandable. Poetic, even.