tough time

At the beginning of 2013, I lost a good job opportunity and love. It was a difficult time to conquer.
A good chance of changing a steady job has flashed away that made me depressed. Several friends of mine who ask me to be their girl friend left me when heard about the bad news. I never realized that love is so weak that people only care about your job not you,the person. (Guys here just wanna marry a girl who has stable jobs, say school teacher, public servant)
I have to move on and continue my current job although I wanna leave this place. I faced a problem of finding a new job while i didnt have so much chance even to attend an interview.
Waiting is suffering. Bad dream comes every night. Tears comes easily to my eyes now. Future is far away.