Going on Diet Food, it is very hard to decide whether you should eat or not when you are hungry if you are on diet. A lot of times my mind says " this is the last time" or " this won't effect me much on my dieting because it is a small amount of food"and find myself that I always say that to me and eat a lot.

Netflix Netflix is very useful for language studies, hence I subscribe Netflix and watch it quite often. I normally watch Netflix in English, however, when I really want to understand the content I read captions in English or Japanese, but that does not help much of my English studies. So I'm conflict whether I should enjoy the content or practice language without any assists such as captions.

Random thoughts I wonder a lot of things. Last night, I had a birthday party with coworkers as some of them have birthdays on October. I was glad that I could join the party and got to talk with coworkers normally I don't. One young guy who sits behind me that I wanted to talk to as he always says " Yes" of what he is asked and never say " No". So, even out of the office, at the restaurant we had the party, he only says positive things, never said anything bad things of others. However, he shows his frustrations or anger through his attitude, typing keyboards so hard and almost breaking them or uses swear words. In some traditional or conservative Japanese companies have seniority based systems, older is greater, long service of length is more rewarded than performance of work. He is the youngest one of our division and he was imposed to do a lot of others work and he works weekend at the company for free! He does not ask for overtime payment as much because it can hurt the company regulation. It made me sad the fact and he should be deserved more. I would like to help him but not only that others who are sincere and have good attitude toward work.

Merlin I have been watching a TV series from England called “ Merlin” by Netflix. The story line is about a wizard Merlin protecting king Arthur by hiding the fact that he is a wizard. The Arthur king’s father is brutal, heartless guy who wishes to vanish all wizards and witches in Camelot where he governs. Arthur and Merlin are two sides of a coin, they are complete being together Merlin has to hide the true of himself from others except for Gaius, the court physician and Merlin’s guardian and mentor. Therefore, when Merlin uses his magical powers, he has to do them secretly.

My favorite thing I love aromatherapy so much. I use aroma diffuser to perfume my room. My favorite aroma essential oils are geranium, lavender, jasmine, rose and ylang ylang. I sometimes put a few drops of these oil into bath tab as well. Scent is very mysterious, when you smell a scent it brings you back a vivid memory as if you were able to get back to the past.

Being vegan may help us survive! I was watching a documentary "Cowspiracy" It is about eating meats may lead our life devastating impact in the end. We were often told to save water, electricity. One pound of beef consumed 2,500 gallon of water... The livestock market could be one of the causes of climate changes, livestock causes 51% of all gas emissions. Why we were not told " reduce eating meat products to save the earth"? The food industry is so huge and a lot of people who involve the field could be damaged. To keep the farmland " safe", a lot of potential wild animals are targeted to be killed officially, not only the land animal stocks but fishing industry also effected by the all untargeted animals are caught by drift nets were bi-killed, they don't recover and they do not recover quickly.. So what do we need to do? Probably eat more plant-based food is sustainable. But it is so hard to be vegan here in Japan, but my perception of food has changed after watching this documentary.

Live and learn Sometimes we learn from things from books but the best thing is to learn things through experience! Experience is something taught you important things and determine your actions, but sometimes experience teaches wrong things ends up overly paranoid over things such as PTSD. ""Experience is not what happens to you. Experience is what you do with what happens to you." -Aldous Huxley that explains everything!