Happy new year It's New Year's Eve. I was invited to take dinner with one of my best friends and her bf. The restaurant has an interesting name, 巴金火锅, the 2nd part of which means hot pot, while the 1st part is the name of a famous Chinese writer in the 20th century, who had many great works and aged over 100. There were many people. They were eating, talking, laughing. The environment seemed so harmonious. The food was good, service not bad, the young waitress smiled friendly. They gave us free popcorn, delicious, calendar of 2015 as gift, beautiful. However, on the way home, I started to feel sort of depressed. Here comes the new year. But I seem not to have a clear new dream. I want to write something while depressed. As the depression often inspires thinking and make time slow down, while happy time passes by before you even notice it. Wish my family and friends health and happiness for 2015. As for myself, I want a dream :)

稻草人手记 时隔多年，再次翻开这本书，依旧感慨良深。

Tonight Wind is whistling outside while inside the cabin it's as quiet as an early morning of spring. Beari is falling asleep, dressed in her reseda nightgown. She bears something to say, but too tired to open eyes, not to say the mouth. Just keep it in mind, hoping it is still there when she wakes up.

i am getting nervous I am getting nervous every time something new happened, I am just afriad i would ruin it. I know nervousness gets me nowhere, but I just cannot help. For example, I like language, and I am indeed interested in it, but when being asked to be a teacher, I am scared. What if I don't know what to say, what if the students don't like me, what if I don't know the word or the phrase, that'll be embarassing. All of these drive me crazy. I am a weird girl.

Why are we traveling?