Changing Environment I never thought i would like slience so much. Now, i cant image playing with a lot of companies instead of slience where i can immerse into studying and experiment. Time is like the graver cutting my hobby, interesting and the connection with my friends even relationship. I must admit that i have becaome a stranger to my friends and my family, different life style and expression logic. So much things left me and have gone without any trace. Studdenly, i find everything has changed except me. The fact is maybe that the only thing has changed is me. Where is my love girl, where is my companies and where is my childhood. Sometimes, we cant look back but adapt with new environment. How knows whether it is the hell.

what do i want? Everytime when i ask myself what i really want, the first object comes out in my mind is money, then lovely wife without any other valuable goal, let alone dream. Do i really need a lot of money and lovely wife who i dont even know who she is just beautiful. Obviously, it is not right after a long time deep thinking. What the hell, who changed my pure soul. We should be honest and devotional. Recently i maybe need spend serious time to deliberate what i should fight wiht my passion, what i should fight with my rest of life.

Fight for My Treasure Far from home, i cant live with my family. The bad thing is that i miss my parents stronger and stronger. I worry wether they are happy, how about their health. Especially my old grandparents, i miss them too much. Sometimes, i dream with them hugging them even crying. Maybe, i want them to back up me. Fighting alone is not a good ideal, however, we, sometimes, dont have a choice. We all kow to conquer the rough troubles with confidence and faith. My faith is my lovely family. i will never drawback even under the worst consideration. Dear myself you need fight for them. Dear myself, dont be afraid.