Please Help Me! 

Recently, I have suddenly found myself tired of learning English and I can’t really understand the reasons why I have become so disinterested. I am no longer interested in reading, listening, or even having conversation with others like before. I think that I’ve become discouraged by my present English level because I have studied it for almost 20 years, yet I still cannot read and write it easily, nor speak it clearly.

I am not confident to speak English with foreigners since they speak too rapidly and I cannot understand the meaning of what they have said, so I usually have to ask the speakers to repeat themselves. At the same time, it is so difficult for me to express myself correctly and fluently whenever I open my mouth to say something in return. I am so frustrated and I hope to be a better student. So, I need your help. Please tell me how to overcome my situation and how to improve my English. Thanks!

Hi! Good job!  Whatever changes that I made were merely done to allow your sentences to sound more natural to my native ears, for clarity, and for ease of reading. I hope that this helps you. J. 

As to improving your language, it sounds like you just need to train your ear to become accustomed to the speed at which English is naturally spoken. So, as the others have suggested, watch TV shows, U-Tube videos, and listen to music or radio broadcasts which use it. The more that you immerse yourself in it, the sooner it will start to make some sense. Along with all the studying that you have done for the past 20 years, it should then be easier to piece it all together. Regardless, you should let it happen naturally, so do not set unrealistic goals or timetables for yourself. For now, given your fatigue, maybe step away from it for a while until you are “hungry” to learn it again. Best of luck!