what is my aim 我的目标是什么

what is my aim? i do not know, do your know?
when i graduated (你在说已经发生过的事) from an university,i realized ("found" 是＂找到＂的意思，"realized" 才是是＂发现＂的的意思) that a good job was so tiring, and that simple jobs give less money. I abandoned my speciality because i do not like it.i went to a CO to do the aircraft maintenance. The job was easy, but the salary was also so easy(low). But, i found ("get" 是＂得到＂ 的意思) an interest with vba when i handled with office application in this cop.
i got a deep learning with it and afterwards i turned to learn the web development by myself.
Now i've resigned from that company and completed my web application, which has some function like a so little MRP.
When i gave ("put" 是＂放＂ 的意思， "gave" 是＂给＂ 的意思) my web and my idea to my friend who is works in that area,he told me "you are too old" .I wonder why! i am only 27 years old. He told me that chinese IT people who write code are 20-30 years old ("is" 是指一个人， "are" 是指所有写计算机代码的人) .if you aren't in a management position,your future is darkness.Because you have less energy than the people who are 20-27years old,and next you still need to marry,if you don't have enough money,getting married is difficult(maybe i think you are not enough handsome enough),and you also don't have face when you meet your relation and friends.
i know so many friends like this around me,and i think they are kindness.
so what is my aim,learn a skill that i like it? Maybe it is just an interest for me,maybe it can't give me any money for me (你都已经说了＂不能给我钱＂， 就不许要说 "for me"). Maybe i should to do something i don't like,maybe i should get married next year and have a child and aim to live aim for him.Maybe i should to tell my relation that i have money, i have resources and i can help you. After I get this aim, a lot people will contact me after i get this aim.
when i don't have an aim,some people will tell me to do something,because all the others are seeking the aim ,maybe money,maybe relationships.People push people,and if you stop,many people will leave you.So,if i prepare to seek some aim,i must drink wine(when i drink wine,i will become to red people from face to feet),i must say some things i don't like,i must to action like a little boy. What a tangled life.
So,i've decided to do something,and i will lose some things.But it is truth.
i know i have written a bad article.

我很伤心你先在的情况这么难， 但是你不能失去希望！你先在还年轻， 能做成大事！我的表哥先在也２７岁， 而且他明年就要来到美国， 开始一个新生活。 我对你的前程很有信心！

I'm sorry your situation is this rough, but you can't lose hope. You're still young and able to do tremendous things! My cousin is also 17, and he's coming to the USA next year to start a new life. I'm very hopeful about your future!