Unemployment is Eating Me Alive Months ago, when I was still a student, I wanted to graduate and find a job already. However, now that I am in this state of unemployment, how I wish I could turn back time and be a student again. It reminds me of the line, "Be careful what you wish for because you might just get it". Unemployment is a concern which is occupying my head right now. It is eating my brain cells and is taking control of me. I have lots of dreams but I do not know where to start. Actually, I had been applying for an online job to make use of my idle times. I keep on applying and most employers would turn down my application because of lack of experience. It doesn't make any sense to me at all! How can I have adequate experience when no one dares to hire me? Well, I can't blame them. After writing the paragraphs above, I realized that maybe the fault is mine. I am too scared to try. I am always on my comfort zone. I guess all of these are just excuses, a facade. The truth is, I lack the courage to take a step and conquer unemployment. I don't know what's holding me back but I believe that it is a part of me. PS. Sorry for blabbering. haha. :D

I Am a Nurse Last August 23, 2012, I went to another town where my school in college was located. I was walking to the Business and Finance office when suddenly, I received a text message. I almost fainted upon reading it. I sat on a chair and read the message again. It was the message that I have been waiting for months already. It says that the result of the Nursing Licensure Examination, which I took last June 30 and July 1, is already released. It was said that out of 60,895, only 27,823 made it. I was so worried and nervous. I was thinking whether I belong to those who passed or to those who failed. My heart was beating like a drum and my hands were as cold as ice. I called my friend who sent the message and asked her if she passed, she said yes. My nervousness doubled. I asked her if she could look for my name on the list of successful takers. I was patiently waiting when suddenly she shouted and said that my name was on the list. After hearing it, I jumped, laughed, and thanked God for such a wonderful and life-changing blessing. My heart was filled with overflowing joy and relief at that time. Until now, I still can't fathom the thought that I am now a certified registered nurse here in the Philippines. Indeed, God will grant what your heart desires if you just believe. For everyone, keep the faith! :)))

In time Families are there to support you in every step of your journey. Family members should guide you and be at your side through the bad and good times of your life. There is no doubt that I love my family so much. We are a happy family with a close relationship to one another. My family, which I'm referring to, does not just compose my father, mother, and siblings. The members of my family also include my grandparents, my aunts and uncles, as well as my cousins. Yes, we are an extended type of family. I am happy to have this type of family because each member would always be there for the other member whose in a difficult situation. Also, we gather and celebrate during special occasions. There is constant communication. We are so close that I consider my cousins as my siblings. However, there are times when I would feel suffocated. I'm like in an enclosed space where I can hardly move and breathe. I feel like they are forcing me to be the person who they want me to be, not who I want to be. In every decision that I make, like choosing a course or a career, I still have to get the 'yes' of everyone before I can pursue with my decision. That goes true to my cousins too. We are already in the modern world, however, my family seems to be stuck in the traditional times wherein the young generations should at all times follow the elderly. It's like an arranged destiny. I want to get out of this shell but it seems like they are pulling me inside it. I want to grow. I want to explore. I want to be in places where I never imagined I could be and do things that I never thought I'm capable of doing. Slowly, I'm able to speak out and tell them what I want for myself. The sad thing is, I can't do it at all times because some of my aunts are so sensitive that doing so means being disrespectful to them. Why can't they understand the uniqueness of a person and widen their perspective of things? What they think is right may not be right for others. I understand that they are doing it for our own good but I also want to take part in building my own life. :/ Am I a bad person for feeling this way? I just want to be truly happy and contented with my life. I believe that if you don't love what you're doing, you will never be completely happy. And if you're not completely happy, you will never be contented. I know that this is partly my fault, so I will strive hard to be on my own path without hurting them. However, I do not know how. In time, I know I can figure out how.