Only to seek that flowers sea in Marriage

Everyone hopes to have a happy marriage comma removed but only a few would accept that their marriage is perfect. I do not know why I believe it is money that sabotages marriage. If people are poor, then a couple would depend on each other more. In that case, people's marriage would be stronger. However, a stronger marriage does not necessarily mean a happier marriage. I feel really confused.

Maybe marriage is related to responsibility rather than happiness. Though marriage can give a person happiness. Sure. If a couple can not look after each other, they must be very painful. A couple looking after each other is necessary, but happiness contains more. but people's happiness...

Do you not think that many people have to marry when they reach a certain age? Do these people have many choices? It is very hard to find a real soul mate. That is also true to a man or a woman: a good boy has already been a woman's husband or a good girl has already been a man's wife.

First notebook entry: Introducing myself

My name is Tom. I can read and write in English, but sometimes i find it hard to express myself verbally under certain circumstances. Therefore I'm looking for someone that can speak with me to help me develop more fluency in English speaking.

The Names

For a while I've been interested in the history of Israel. what amaze me is how they have chosen their names. This is by the meaning and not how nice it sounds or only because a famous person has that name, e.g. Jacob means 'leg-puller' and that is because of the manner in which he was born. God change Jacob's name to Israel which means 'persevere with God'. So knowing this I say we should have the possibility of choosing our names or having more realistic names. I can not deal with the meaning of my names. The meaning of my first name could be 'lion of God or Hero' and I'm not a hero and my last name means 'crowned' and I'm too far to be crowned for anything.

First notebook entry: Introducing myself

I was very young when I first heard English. It's sounds very beautiful to me. While others are speaking English it sounds just like they are singing a song. I am really intersted in English. However, I was not able to learn English until I was 9. I can get a good mark on every English test but I think my oral English is not good enough. Maybe just because I want to speak English just the same as native speakers, just like music.

Thank You.

Oh my really tough time~people come around. Calling sms msn skype and qq. Thanks to you all but I am still sorry to let you all down. I am sorry but I have to say I love you all and am really greatful that you are with me during my depression. Thanks to Wen, Houzi, Puyang, Mimisha, Yura, Alert, Peer and Lululu. Thank you for being with me on the nervous night to wait my results. Yu, Xiao, Zui, Piao, Ha...thank you for being with me and caring about me. Frau Lv you are the teacher of my life. Thanks,  you lead me to my Lord. Whatever my Lord you are with me. Love me forever.