After you lost someone special Usually I rarely watch TV but last week I watched a Japanese drama. It's been while and the drama was called "Tombi" From the first episode, I couldn't help crying. Since I lost my friends and family members, when I watch the scene which people pass away or someone who is suffering from the death of the loved one, it always gives me grief and makes me cry. Because I do understand what it is like deeply, their grief, pain and loneliness after people lost someone special. A father of the main character lost his wife due to an accident. He threw away all her belongings because it was so heartrending. When you lost someone you loved, it's not easy to fill your inner emptiness. It also takes some time to heal your feelings. When my father passed away, my mother started to throw way his personal belongings right away. At that time, I wondered why she could do that so soon. There were so much memories in his stuff. However I realized that my mother had a rough time at that moment and it was so hard to deal with the situation. After watching the drama, I noticed her feelings and I couldn't stop crying. I realized...that's why she did that.... Now I came to understand her feelings which I couldn't know at that moment . Sorry, mom. Everyone lives holding various feelings. Sometimes you get lost and don' know how to deal with grief or disconsolate feelings but those feelings are changing definitely as time goes by. Time is a healer.