Be More Realistic! I should be more realistic! I always think that all things will go as I had planned. I can simply say, 'I want it to be this way', 'it seems not good, I don't want it to be that way'. It doesn't make sense at all! I should have realized that I could not determine what will happen in the future. Right now, I'm busy planning about my future. I do not realise that what am I doing right now is only just a dream. I might get hurt.

I Need A Rest Being in this program, Malaysia-Japan Twinning Program had changed me 360 degree. I'm not like the old me that always laughing, do something in peaceful and have enough sleep. I hate the new me. I sleep between 3 a.m to 4 a.m. I go to school with an eye bags, do not concentrate in class, sleep during lecture and my laugh, my sweet smile had gone. Seriously, first time in my life I feel that I really need a rest, although for a few days. I really need time where I can be alone, in peaceful without thinking about my study and my responsibility. I want the old me. I want to sleep in peace. Wake up early in the morning and go to school with a new breathe. Yes, I need rest.

'Heart Problem' I just don't know why it is so hard when we talk about 'heart problem' or maybe I should say it is all about our feeling towards something or someone. For me, it is the most troubling thing to deal with. It hurt me the most when I have to pretend that I'm okay although deep in my heart, I almost give up. And now, I pretend to show that I'm okay when she told me about the upcoming wedding, I smiled, said the most pleased word although my heart already cracked into small pieces!

Awesome! Last two weeks, I went for a leadership camp at Lopo Village, Hulu Klang, Selangor with the others participants. At first, I didn't enjoy that camp but 3 days there made me felt too impressive. Although we had to run, screaming like a nut, eat our lunch under the hot sun but, it just great! Being in that camp made me realized that there were many people outside that don't have the same abilities with us but, we must respect and accept them for who they are. It's just a simple thing; respect others and so they will respect us. I was in Eagle group with 6 members whereas 4 boys and 2 girls include me. Sometimes, I found it's quite difficult to communicate with them as I've never meet them before but sincerely, they were awesome! How can I deny that fact when I had felt in love with them only in 3 days? It's the first time I found people that only smiled when I had made some mistakes, always calm me down when I got angry, and help me when I'm in trouble. During that camp, we had to make our own cap and wore it through the camp. I have to admit that I'm a careless team member as I had lost my cap for 5 times but, I'm lucky that my team members always with me. They smiled and said, " Ain, it's okay. As long we still alive, we will help you". My tears dropped. I just knew them in 3 days but, they were too kind for me. The most hardest part was the last day. I know that, after this we'll never meet again as all of us will be busy with our study but, I really want to say that they were awesome! I’m truly in love with them.