My first crush--for you darling Last year I met this guy called Will at a summit in Shanghai. He's from Georgia and he was my house leader(we are all divided in to 12 houses). I didn't know how to make friends with someone from another country that I was not familiar with at that time because I don't want myself to seem weird and scare him. So I just grabbed every opportunity that I could get to talk to him, you know, casually. For some reason, I was not willing to let him know that I had a crush on him, which turned out to be a huge mistake. However, one night we were all talking about relationships that we had been in, and I brought up my ex-boyfriend who was a nuisance for me at that time. He comforted me really patiently and really gently, and he said" there will be people who will really accept you for who you are." I guess that's the night that I seriously fell for him. I don't know why but he feels like everything that I've ever wanted. So on the last night of the summit, I went to find him , to just talk to him and maybe tell him that I like him. I saw him with his friends but I dare not step forward and ask him to talk to me because I didn't know what his friends would feel about me. (Oh right here's a little background: he was 19 last year and I was 15. He comes from America and I am from China.) So basically I've spent my whole year thinking about him every day. I made up various excuses(maybe some of them are really ridiculous) to talk to him, to call him. But I never brought up the fact that I love him. The whole secret crush is sweet and it means a lot for me. However, recently I found out that he started dating a girl named Victoria and it broke my heart. I cried the whole noon yesterday and I decided to start over. It doesn't mean that I will stop loving him. I love him like I did and like I will always do. But my love shouldn't burden him or me. Love should be good and nice and magical. It shouldn't be sad or devastating. So that is how my first official crush ends. By the way, does it seem weird if a girl approaches someone who she has crush on??? Like would that person be annoyed by me??