I hope... It´s 4 May,  it is 30 degrees in Madrid, it´s hot today. We are in phase zero of de-escalation I feel fear. I think that I won´t go back to my previous life. I want to change this.  Before the coronavirus, I was in a bad state of mind, stressed, tired, angry, I didn´t like my work, the people, I was exhausted. Now, I think that I needed peace, calm, breath, think about me and about what I wished for me. For the first time I've had time for myself. Read a book, to trying to practice yoga, watching films, documentaries, writing about whatever,  listening vinyl discs, all of kind music, practice exercises at home, speaking with my friends without haste, enjoy the silence, doing… Nothing. It´s wonderful! My mind needed a stop, the universe needed a stop. And now, back to the real world is going to be difficult for me. I hope this time helps me to see that I wasn't happy. I have to understand that I have to get a lot of changes in my diary life. No stress unnecessary, I can do it but I have to convince myself of it.