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       I don’t know what should I talk. But this homework you assigned must be finished. So I want to talk something about my English study. My mental state is very contradictory for English. On one hand, I want to learn it well and speak it fluently. On the other hand, It seems like fighting with me. No matter how I effort, I always gets no avail. I once read English every morning for an hour. But a month later, I found my English have no improved. So I felt very boring. Some time, I think, maybe I do not have talent to learn English well. But I still don’t believe I cannot learn English well. I won’t give up, which is not my style. But once I pick up English books I felt vacant, because I didn’t know how to learn. Sometimes I want to recite the words as beginning. But there are many words, how many words I should recite every day, 10 or 50? At the beginning, I planed to recite 50 words every day. But a week later, I found I don't have this ability. So I recited the words within my competence. However, I found I didn’t have improved. What should I do? I want to go to English class. But my best friend advised me not to go because he think there is nothing to use and the money will be waste. Sometimes I think if only I could speak English fluently that must be good. My dear teacher you also come from the student, you should be able to understand what I'm feeling.