thank you for your advice.it sounds quite practical. but there is a little difficulty in dating with other girls for me . i just want to lead a quiet life now .and she is not pretty shallow and manipulative as you said.conversely.she is  kind-hearted ,lovely,and pure .sometimes i  chat with her  in a easy manner online.

in the past two years ,she refused me for four times. honestly speaking ,sometimes i was moved by myself .according to her answer,she has no feeling for me .maybe i was not her type.in fact ,i have lost hope.even though,it is unforgetable for me to touch the feeling of love  and experience anxiety of missing.everything will be gone . <tbody> </tbody> <tr> </tr> <td style="padding-right: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; margin: 0px; vertical-align: top; padding-top: 0px; list-style-type: none"> </td>

if your words are right.i can presume that the life of a sizable minority of people is colorless. as if  whether love or not was not what they care about .

when it comes to love ,the issue seems to  be complicated.yes ,i do not how to decrible the shape or weight  of love ,but it is exactly there. several years past ,both of us have no  change . until now ,i can not understand how  girls  think of love. perhaps she is so special that i can not guess her thinkings. she is so lovely  as  a  child.that is  her beauty  i appreciate .and i respect her and her decision regardless of her attitude towards my affection.

thank u . feel better now .it will tkae some time to clear the feeling from my memory .i  find it easy for me when i contact something new or other people .full of water in your bottle ,it will not hold any more unless you pull a little out .

i must say ,you may be right.there is an old saying in chinese---yuanfen.that is what i lack ,though god let me meet her in my life.

 there  is too much "maybe". i have to give up  my love .no mattter how much i love her,the word i get is "sorry".maybe the ture love is not really enough.