end at missing I think I could keep silent But i think I cannot keep silent for a long time start day is short and night is long. So long that I cannot bear it . for so many years it's true. I have got used to it, however , I'm still afraid of the darkness . Seems never end. maybe there's a reason, maybe not. I have forgot in fact. Or maybe my mind doesn't allow me to think of that. nothing special happen , but my dear guys ,I just can't tell why i feel like a missing child. world has been wholly changed with no room for my feet, no available room for me to stand safety . tired but i can't fall asleep. lying with my eyes open, try to leave out the frightening darkness . I make my best to think of something strenge or far away. Wondering if there is a way that leads to my own heart .I am always searching for it ant i have been searched for so long time . Tired already , i have no strenth to continue. are the stories written in the end beautiful ? can i wait for it? are the sentences that needs of each other written in the end unnecessary? so can't you stop struggle ? if you are right here behind me, i'll turn back with worm teers in my eyes . that's just a dream... There's nothing waiting for me every time i turn back with great hope. Weather becomes cold , i have no choice but to go stright forward without hesitation. laugh loudly in the street , wear multi-colored clothes ,but sorry for that i have lost my passion from inner heart. At least now i can't find it. things are always beyond our wildest dreams . I have learned that there will be a day I'm not the apple of somebody's eye ,a day when I'm not somebody's princess anymore . Love is a extravagance itself , don't deserve a perpetual one.

毕业这件事 2011年夏，忽然发现京城里面比它的每一个冬天都令人毛骨竦然。像是许多人聚在一起看一场冷电影，然后表情凝固，各怀心事。­ 这个夏天，有那么一件不算很重要却也值得一提的事情，那就是：我毕业了。­ “毕业”，怎么说它呢？潦草，对，我在2011年灾难横行的夏天潦草的毕业了。错过了毕业典礼，错过了院里的，系里的各形各色的欢送会，错过了一群狐朋狗友的散伙饭……唯一参加了的是我的短短三十分钟的论文答辩，然而感谢这三十分钟，它让我亲爱的校领导心悦诚服的在那张毕业证上盖了一个大红戳。­ 生活像是小学生上的那种体育课，本身大家是密密麻麻的排成方阵站在一起的，一旦下课，老师吹下哨子，同学们齐刷刷的拍一个响亮的巴掌，就各自散了，然后你在混乱中发现自己形单影只，无所适从。­ 我的毕业就是老师吹的那声哨子，然而似乎解散时每个人的巴掌都拍在了我的脸上，然后各自散了，散的彻底，散的讽刺。我使劲儿的想着我的脸有多么火辣辣的疼，却始终没能盖过哪怕一点点那种丢人现眼的难过。 我没有伤别离，所以还不至于掉眼泪。只是在还没弄清楚生活多讽刺的时间里，就只能这样呆着，没有表情没有思想的。我想上帝是觉得眷顾我太久了，于是趁着毕业这一小散，奖励我生活一大散。 然而留恋是犯罪，日子还得继续过的。 再见，我所有热血沸腾的岁月。

have u ever heard it？

forever at your feet

Knocking on the triad/
A boat that's made for rain/
A briar grows in twain with roses/
Come to rid/
Forever at your feet /

Glass and pinch of breast/
Knocking at my tray/
While leave on /
Please take me home my long to leave/
Forever at your feet/

And I hope that you won’t mind, my dear/
When you see my eyes are lie, my dear /
It’s because I avoided all these of you /
All your kisses, sweeter than mint /
And touch them /
Softer than sea /
Oh, treasure/
I would be~~~ /
Forever at your feet /

And I hope that you won’t mind, my dear/
When you see my eyes are lie, my dear/
It’s because I avoided all these of you /
All your kisses, sweeter than mint /
And touch them /
Softer than sea /
Oh, treasure /
I would be~~~/
Forever at your feet/

May 25, 2011（forever at your feet) forever at your feet Knocking on the triad/ A boat that's made for rain/ A briar grows in twain with roses/ Come to rid/ Forever at your feet / Glass and pinch of breast/ Knocking at my tray/ While leave on / Please take me home my long to leave/ Forever at your feet/ And I hope that you won’t mind, my dear/ When you see my eyes are lie, my dear / It’s because I avoided all these of you / All your kisses, sweeter than mint / And touch them / Softer than sea / Oh, treasure/ I would be~~~ / Forever at your feet / And I hope that you won’t mind, my dear/ When you see my eyes are lie, my dear/ It’s because I avoided all these of you / All your kisses, sweeter than mint / And touch them / Softer than sea / Oh, treasure / I would be~~~/ Forever at your feet/ 永相随/ 敲响三和弦/ 一条用雨滴做成的船儿/ 玫瑰两侧荆棘丛生 / (我)渴望从中摆脱 / 与你永相随 / 玻璃和我胸口的刺痛 / 在生活中敲响我的盘子/ 请带我回到阔别已久的家园 / 与你永相随/ 并且,我希望你不会介意,亲爱的/ 当你看到我的眼睛流露着谎言,亲爱的 / 那是因为我逃避了这些关于你的一切 / 你的吻,比薄荷还要甜蜜 / 而且,触摸它们 / 比海浪还要柔软 / 噢,我将铭记珍藏 / 与你永相随

if you are tired

i'm trying to find a way to relax myself