kafka in my heart

To be frank, I <em>couldn't </em>understand the deep meaning of the metamorphosis when I first read it. The metamorphosis<em> is like just an absurd</em> story. But after<em> having read</em> it again and again, I feel the story <strike>is</strike> like a mirthless as well as lasting song that is from Kafka’s heart.

Gregor Samsa, a common person, has legendary experience. One day <strike>when</strike> he woke up from <em>a</em> bad dream and realized <em>that</em> he <em>had</em> bec<em>o</em>me a cockroach. But this is only the beginning of bad things. Gradually, his family kept apart from him and <em>came to</em> <em>hate </em>him. Eventually, he chose to die instead of living, to relieve his family.

For his family, I feel fairly angry. Why only Gregor in the whole family need<em>ed</em> to make money? While the other numbers<em> could</em> rest. This was <em>the</em> reason that directly gives rise to heavy pressure and hopeless<em>ness</em> <em>to</em> his life. Because his family treated him<em> as if he had been</em> a tool which <em>had to </em> make money. Beyond that, when Gregor became a cockroach, his family <em>did</em> not only <em>resist</em> <strike>never to</strike> comfort<em>ing</em> him but also want<em>ed</em> to get rid of him. Where is <em>the</em> true love between <em>a</em> child and <em>his</em> parents<em>?</em>!!

<em>As </em>For Gregor, I <em>consider </em>him <em>to be</em> sympathetic and respectful. Even though his family treat<strike>s</strike> him very bad, he still love<em>s</em> everybody. For instance he was afraid that his mother <em>could</em> worr<em>y</em> about him. He followed the <em>sounds</em> <em>in</em> his sister’s room when she played violin. Especially, he chose to die, to relieve his family. I have to say that he ha<em>d </em> broad mind.

Obviously, Gregor’s experience reflexed Kafka’s life. Kafka believe<em>d that</em> he was <em>an</em> encumbrance for his family, so he wrote the article. I can experience the same feeling sometimes. Because when I decided to go to university in Canada, I always fe<em>lt</em> that w<em>ould</em> bring heavy pressure to my family. Even if I think <em>that</em> Gregor had broad mind, we need to be stronger. When face to the difficulties, we should smile. Smile will drive away the clouds of gloom and coax the sun again. From my perspective, I can reduce my family’s pressure, <em>if only</em> applying part-time jobs. Thus, if I was born in early 20<em>th</em> century，I hope I could have helped a cocaroach whose name is Gregor.