An idea that language creates a new personality .

I was thinking and realized something that makes me commit myself in English Language during a trip.

At the same time, I'm on my journey to find myself.

Now  that I found it myself, it’s too hard to feel and access the core of myself  that I feel and met in a trip using my mother tongue.

The language influences and creates personality especially for a language learner who is a beginner like a kid.

Each personality access to the identity (the source) in different ways .

Language , thinking, emotion and personality belongs to consciousness while feelings, inspiration and identity belongs to unconsciousness.

Each personality is the key to open some gates of the identity and language is a trigger too. (OK)

Mother tongue have been created a complicated personality and it can be sometimes noisy and messy or covers my true feelings.

If I lost myself in my mother tongue and memories of experiences, It's hard to find myself. (Never begin a sentence with "But or And")

In that case I should try again to overwrite my personality by using complicated personality or I just shift to english personality .

I think this way is easier than overwriting it.

What do you think ? And How is your way to overcome ?