Mirror Since listening to Shu’s speech during the English Day. I somehow reflected back myself, I always fall into same hole over and over again. Even though I don’t blame anybody else but falling into the same hole over and over again just shows that how stupid are you. You already know the consequences but still keep repeating it. People who don’t learn from mistakes, how can they success? I don’t know what should I do to prevent myself from doing the same mistakes again. Why I never learnt this.

Idolizing During school break when I was 16, I watched a drama which after that made me liked a boy-band. It was not a mere like I was really a fangirl before. I felt stupid thinking about it now. Why is it? The reason is instead of having interest in the songs, to have interest in the singers not because they are good at singing or admirable. I even found myself stupid during my fandom period. Luckily, it only lasted for 1 year. Unfortunately, a few months later I started to fall into other boyband. Being a fan was actually really troublesome even me as a former fangirl thought so too. I personally think that people like the music because of the music itself or at least because of the way the singers sing the song but not liking the singers himself of his look.

Horror Each times you hear this word, what do you think at first? Most people will think of ghosts of course. Those words greatly related to each other thus making everyone including me to thinking of ghosts each times hearing this word. However, since I watched horror anime I've stopped to think that way. In animes, they don't really make horror stories those are related to ghosts instead they make stories that give out horror feeling even though they are not ghosts stories. Once, I watched a short anime about fish that underwent revolution which made the fish had legs. They suddenly came to land and spreaded viruses to human as well as animal. In consequences, all the infected human turned to some kind of zombies. They are not zombies actually ust I ddon't know how to put in words.

Memory How well you remembered your prime school's friends? I know I'm not really good at memorizing people faces but after 7 years apart from the prime school days, I still barely remembered their faces somehow. Compare to my father who already in his 60's but he still remembered most of his friends even they haven't seen each other for more than 10 years. I hope I can be like him too, genetically maybe I do. This evening I went to the market and I thought I saw my friend from the primary school days. I looked at her for quite a long time but she seemed to be not recognized me at all. Unfortunately I didn't say hi to her. This was not the first time though, I've met my other friends at other places too but they didn't recognize me maybe they didn't see me. I'm too short.

Native As a Malaysian I speak Malay well. I don’t think it is well enough though as I can’t speak formally like those debaters and my narrow range of vocabulary. I keep using the same word over and over again plus the fact that I don’t like reading newspaper or novels maybe magazines the only Malay reading materials that I often read. I am a slow-reader. Even scanning or skimming takes me long enough. Once when I was still schooling, among all the language subjects those I take the one with the worst grade will be my own native language. Even though other language subjects usually were a lot better maybe English was not that good. Somehow it reminded me when I was in Form 5 and everyone had been busy writing resumes. Usually in a resume people will state their languages proficiency especially English. So friend said that if she graded her English as good it seemed you were able to speak well enough and if graded as bad it seemed like you didn’t know how to speak at all. Then she asked, “can I just put not bad?”. Maybe I should put like that too.

Unsatisfied It happened during holidays, one day I just went back from a ceremony. It was night and I was very exhausted, I thought it going to end earlier unfortunately it wasn't thus made me lost my mood. Luckily it wasn't that far from my house but I still able to fell asleep in the car. Once I reached home I was still sleepy but I refused to sleep directly and so I sat in front of the television and watched the show for that night. It was a boring talent show aired that time. I have stopped liking this kind of talent show since suddenly there were so many talent shows popped up. Luckily my brother realized my bored face and then changed the channel. It was a movie titled “Departed” if I’m not mistaken. It was an interesting movie though the ending made me really speechless. I was deeply into the movie until I watched the ending then I realized I have wasted my time.

Similar It is said that everyone in the world has about 7 people which have similar faces with him or her. Wondering about it for a while sometimes will make us burst into laughter alone. Imagining other people who have similar faces with us is really funny. In addition, Hindus (if i'm not mistaken) also have some kind of believes that one's who has reached the highest position; moksya, he will not be born again in the world. This somehow reminded me once when I went to a museum in Negeri Sembilan where they put an ancient picture of some noble-palace people I think. In the picture there was a guy who really look like my schoolmate. My friend then said,"it seems he didn't reach moksya yet," it is just a joke. It somehow really made me laughed.

Deceived For the first time in my life I think I have been deceived. Maybe it could be called swindled? No, it was not that terrible but I felt that way. Why? I ended up bought something that I did not want at all. The story begins when I was just passing by on the hallway and there I saw a small booth selling a dictionary-software. Every times I passes that hallway I don't glance at all at it because I hate people selling the so called very-useful-products. One day, I just finished my class and I met my friend somewhere around the hallway and then the saleswoman called us. At first, I didn't want to go there I rather went back to my room and take a nap than listening to her. Unfortunately, my friend said,"We don't have class after this why not?" Reluctantly, I sat there and listening to the explanation about the software. I didn't know how can I suddenly have the urge to buy it. Maybe after my friend said she was interested to it and intended to buy one. So, I ended up buying one. I was the dumbest person in the world. I regret it until now. It is so freaking slow and it is like an unstable version of some kinds of software unfortunately it is not like that. Despite that, it is at the least a little bit useful, I don’t have to bring the all-thick dictionary. However compared to my friend at least mine was installed and not like hers. I won’t approach any salesman with any of my friends again. If I have to swear or take an oath certainly I will. Even my family will play dumb every times there are salesmen . Maybe once or twice they experienced the same thing. The conclusion is, be determined and stand on your own opinion strongly.