English, education and my perspectives As a kid, our parents were too obliged on their children education, like "achieve as highest as possible" mind set, or score A for every papers that you sit (this was when I was at primary school when i was 12 )... English, is one of the subject that I used to take for granted, yet my parents kept telling me to get at least B grade for the subject but they were really on edge about that and wanted me to do something about that...I, as a kid on that time, i don't have any goals, let alone to score a paper like English.....I was so not understand English when I listened to , and I was neither capable to build a simple sentence nor speak. Living in a common native language community (English is not our first language, but some of my friends of mine put English as their daily communication medium), I was a bit drifted to practice /speak the English, while my friends get exposure and encouragement to speak English or attends a class during school break or communicates with their peers in English, I was really can't do that! Here, I am not blaming my parents though, at first of my education phase, they were really pushing me and my siblings around on studies, those endless nagging at night when you were doing bad in mid-terms, homework spot-check routines and sometimes we got hit by that rattan (don't get a wrong idea, it was not that dramatic or we got hurt or something, we are strong and the tears were dried...)...it was not endearing moments and actually i did bad for my final year of primary school though...this was the turning point of where I really want my parents to be happy again with my academic thing because they want me to get a place in a boarding school programme. But when, I was at secondary school and high school phase (13 to 17), they stopped being this strict parental acting...this was not a good sign though cause (i think) they though I was may not good in that department, so they kinda let it cool and move on, but I was on fire and really want to give something that would bring their attention compared to my brightest brother... I did pretty okay on my studies and I started learn the language from basic and I do feel so lost sometimes because I just want an A for subject like English. This was a bad move because I was practically got one, but I cannot speak properly and it did not fit well with my achievement.