Wishes.

I have always had some wishes. Ever since I could think, I have had some wishes.

As a child the wishes were so unrealistic, like to be in a fairy tale, covered in a warm soft pink cloud. Feeling free, feeling alive, feeling me, (feeling myself - This means something a but rude! :p). Without having to pleasing someone, without having to meet expectations. Just being me, and enjoying how life's meant to be. But how's life meant to be at all?

I grew up, yet a grown woman. I had to fulfill some expectations. Responsibility, that was what it was called which made me this way. This way.. Which way? This way I am right now. Taking responsibility for my family, for myself, my life. But the wishes are still here. Wishes are big, wishes may still be unrealistic, but they are here. Right now. With me. In me. And even though those wishes are here, I'm not sure if those "wishes" really are wishes! Aren't they more hopes, or dreams, or even expectations? We all have our hopes and dreams. Hopes and dreams are necessary to bring me to where I want to be. It's important to give myself the power to reach what I want in life, and it doesn't matter to me if I'm successful or not. All what matters to me is this "power", this special power. Because if it isn't meant to be, it won't happen anyway. And there we are, frustrated over things which we want so badly, but it just won't happen.

Wishes, dreams, hopes are starting to appear again, to give us this power, to not give up, and fight for things which are important to us. But.. But I think too, that sometimes it's better to replace all the wishes, hopes, dreams and expectations with acceptance instead. There are things in life you just can't change, things which are meant to be, things which teach you about life.

Have wishes, hopes, dreams, and expectations, but also acceptance. Wishes, hopes, dreams and expectations may give you this special power, but I think, that acceptance of big things, makes you satisfied.